this is gonna be a bit sad. so dont be annoyed at me cos i warned you \:
i went yog earlier. in the car everyone was saying i looked sad and in the end everything just came out, and it was first time in ages i've been like that, and i hated it. i hated it, i felt so bloody feeble cos i couldnt stop. my breathing was all horrible and i felt so crappy.
then i got to yog, and i had cryeyes. which made everything worse because everyone knew i was sad, and this just made me cry more, so much so that i wouldnt even open my mouth to speak because i would have just gone bleurgh and crack. i tried to hold it in, and i think i did pretty well. the strange thing is i dont know where it was all coming from because that morning i'd been fine. i guess its just when everyone knows you're sad cos you cant hide it that you just let out. but i am actually so thankful to all my friends. so much. i know i was pretty crappy but you were there for me and it just made me feel so much better, now lonely.
and i got home and into my room and just broke. everything i'd been holding in through yog just came out and poured down my face and i couldnt stop. and thats where i am now. but i know its not gonna help anything at all because you dont give a shit. its probably my fault anyway.
if i were skinnier
if i were prettier
if my belly was flatter, muscular
if my eyes were bigger
if my eyelashes were longer
if my nose was pointier
if my balance was daintier
if my hair was trendier, smoother, generally nicer
if my boobs were bigger
if my thighs were muscular
if my legs were thinner
if my fingers were slender
if my feet were prettier
if my smile was cuter
if my teeth were whiter
if i was nicer
if my face was shorter
if my cheeklines were bonier
if my eyebrows were shapier
if my nose was less shiney
if i had nicer legs
if my skin was smoother
if
maybe
maybe
shit happens.
i hate myself, im so pityful. why?!
Saturday, 30 January 2010
Thursday, 28 January 2010
roomtidy/valentines/friday
i just tidied my room
and vaccuumed it
i used to be really obsessed with keeping my carpet clean, but recently i've got really slobby and cba. to be fair when you compare my room to some peoples it looks good. but now it looks better, rearranged+dusted the shelf, tidied desk, vaccuumed carpet, made bed, and stuck up any pictures that had fallen down. so now im ready for katarina to not think i live in a pigsty. however her rooms not always tidy itself ;D the amount of times i've gone round there and shes been like 'you cant go upstairs, its a dump!' ;D
im actually really looking forward to tomorrow, i might have a footlong sub, if i have enough money. im poor atm, like always. need to save for kats+sams presents, +possibly amy's, then theres a bit of a break cos its my birthday, then until rosies/franks/dans/glens/catherines birthdays im free. today was jacks birthday, happy birthday jacko {: even though you wont read this muaha.
but oh jesus, all the stuffs going up for valentines day. i hate valentines day. mheeeeeer. i guess for some people its cute and all that, but in general i just dont like it. for all the others ive been single, and i actually had such a good valentines day last day with the bowling and secret cupid. anyway, when you're single its like eurgh, im single on a day where everyone else is loved up, how shit do i feel? and if you're iar then theres like a pressure that you have to do something. and get each other silly little teddies and shiz. which i guess is nice, but for me just another thing to worry about messing up and doing wrong. bleeeeurgh.
this does not mean i am against relationships or i do not like my relationship cos i do, i just purely dont like valentines day. maybe this years will be good though, you never know ;D
skins started again tonight but ima watch it online because i dont get e4 in my room (N) and i dont wanna be up late anyways xD
(K)
and vaccuumed it
i used to be really obsessed with keeping my carpet clean, but recently i've got really slobby and cba. to be fair when you compare my room to some peoples it looks good. but now it looks better, rearranged+dusted the shelf, tidied desk, vaccuumed carpet, made bed, and stuck up any pictures that had fallen down. so now im ready for katarina to not think i live in a pigsty. however her rooms not always tidy itself ;D the amount of times i've gone round there and shes been like 'you cant go upstairs, its a dump!' ;D
im actually really looking forward to tomorrow, i might have a footlong sub, if i have enough money. im poor atm, like always. need to save for kats+sams presents, +possibly amy's, then theres a bit of a break cos its my birthday, then until rosies/franks/dans/glens/catherines birthdays im free. today was jacks birthday, happy birthday jacko {: even though you wont read this muaha.
but oh jesus, all the stuffs going up for valentines day. i hate valentines day. mheeeeeer. i guess for some people its cute and all that, but in general i just dont like it. for all the others ive been single, and i actually had such a good valentines day last day with the bowling and secret cupid. anyway, when you're single its like eurgh, im single on a day where everyone else is loved up, how shit do i feel? and if you're iar then theres like a pressure that you have to do something. and get each other silly little teddies and shiz. which i guess is nice, but for me just another thing to worry about messing up and doing wrong. bleeeeurgh.
this does not mean i am against relationships or i do not like my relationship cos i do, i just purely dont like valentines day. maybe this years will be good though, you never know ;D
skins started again tonight but ima watch it online because i dont get e4 in my room (N) and i dont wanna be up late anyways xD
(K)
hi my names zoe and these are the answers
my rooms a mess. i need to clean it cos katarinas here tomorrow night. poofaces. this will delay the cleaning ;D
The Basics:
Name: Zoe King
School: Meophaaaaaaam
Nationality: English. + a teeny bitta scottish
Hobbies: im a full time paedophile
Love Life:
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: yahuh
Do you like someone?: yeeees
Does anyone like you?: id hope so
Have you ever kissed anyone?: er, yes.
Hugged anyone in the past week?: i've hugged lotsa people (A)
Ever French kissed anyone?: not sure
Friendships:
Who is your best friend(s)?: rosieee +kathi+kat+sam+jack
How long have you known them?: since the very very end of year two, but didnt speak until year 3 xD, since reception, since year , since year 7, since i were 4. :D
Where did you meet them?: she moved to my school
Did you lose any friends this year?: ive lost a few. but tbh they changed. or they just turned out to be an arsehole.
Gain any?: ive gained a lot a lot, they're amaze
Meet a special friend?: as in what i think this means? er, sort of.
Did you hang out with any friends in the past week?: last weekend i spent with sam/kat, glen/crystal+loads of random peoples, then rosie. + school obvs.
2009 (New Years):
Did you do anything at midnight?: ran around katarinas house screaming really loudly :')
Who did you spend it with?: katarina , katherine and an assortment of pets
Did you have any resolutions?: yes, 'stop being a whore' thanks katherine. :L
2009 (Valentines Day):
Did you have a Valentine?: jodie dixon i think :L how times have changed
Did you send out any cards/chocolates/etc?: we did this secret valentines day thing where we all gave homemade presents, i gave rosie some heart shaped cookies, and i've still got my zoe doll. the head fell off. oooh dear
Did you have a boyfriend/girlfriend on this day?: no, none of us did, those were the simple days :D
2009 (Summer):
Did you go on vacation?: non
Did you hang out on the beach with friends?: yeaaa, broadstairs twice
How long was your summer break?: 6 1/2 amaaazing weeks
Did you get a tan?: oh, yes (L)
Did you have a boyfriend/girlfriend during the summer?: sort of. but not officially til right at the end
2009 (Halloween):
Did you go trick or treating? plans got cancelled cos kats mum was ill (N) rosie stayed over
If so, who did you go with?: na
Did you dress up?: no :(
Was it fun?: broadditch was funtimes :D
2009 (Christmas):
Who did you spend it with?: family obvs
Did Santa come to your house?: as he always does :)
Did you stay up until midnight on Christmas Eve?: dont think so, if i did it would have just been on my laptop :L what a fun life i lead
2009 (Your Birthday):
Who did you spend it with?: eeeeh, rosie+kathi+katarina+sam+georgecapon+stefan+john+catherine+aimee+charlie+georgemackey+anyone ive forgotten
What did you do?: camer parrrrk <3 What did you get?: lotsa stuffs, clothes jewellery cd's chocolate moneys etc When is it?: 2nd Maay Have You Evers: [x] Kissed someone (anywhere) [x] Hugged someone [x] Electricuted yourself [x] Climbed more than 60 feet [x] Made a Youtube video [x] Lied to a loved one [x] Had a nosebleed [ ] Gotten airsick [x] Been so bored, you just ate food [x] Not brushed your teeth for a day [x] Not showered for a day [] Eaten Korean BBQ [x] Drank alchohol [x] Smoked [] Had sex [x] Had a pet [] Ran a marathon [x] Had a boyfriend/girlfriend [x] Punched someone Name 5 things you would like to say to people (without naming their names): 1. i want to see you 2. i miss you, i hope you're okay 3. you stupid arrogant stuck up arse, stop acting like we're worthless and that you're mr perfect, because you are really not all that. trust me. 4. thats wrong, frankly you need to make your mind up. and you, sort it out!
5. SORT OUT YOUR ROOTS, and shower! looking at you makes me feel physically sick thankyou.
Name 4 people you can trust with anything:
1. rosie
2. my mum?
3. jack
4. owain+kathi+sam+kat (could not pick, so cheated, muaha!)
Name 3 things you really want:
1. friday night not please
2. you two to really not get together, yuck
3. one of your hoodies, :(
Name 2 people you’ve known the longest (not counting family):
1. jack holmes
2. rosie lockett
Name 1 wish you have for 2010:
1. for it to just be a good year, and for me not to fuck up too much
5 Do’s:
1. Do you play any instruments?: no, i fail miserably
2. Do you play any sports?: only in p.e and they're really not taken seriously
3. Do you believe in 2012?: i believe in the year, not all the shit that supposedly will happen in it
4. Do you like cheese?: sure i like cheese, specially on toast
5. Do you honestly like Obama?: oh-bama, oh-sama, i kid, he seems okay {:
4 If’s:
1. If you were to get $1 Million for breaking up with your boyfriend/girlfriend (if you have one), would you?: what id do, is id tell him i was breaking up with him for a week or so, so i could take the million, then afterwards get back with him and then have a million pound. im smart ;D
2. If you were to get $50,000 for killing a rat, would you?: er yes, like a million rats are killed every day from roadkill and being eaten by other animals, deal with it. and id be set with my £50,000. and if i do it humanely im probably doing it a favour compared to a lot of ways it could die
3. If you were to choose between your best friend and your brother/sister, who would you choose?: rosie, lol. i could live without my sister.
4. If you were to choose between coke/pepsi or sprite/7up, which would you choose?: coke, never gets old
3 How’s:
1. How old do you want to be when you get married?: erm, at least 20.
2. How many siblings do you have?: 1
3. How did your Christmas go (2009)?: was goodtimes :D
2 When’s:
1. When did you have your first kiss?: think it was a dare. wasnt nice lol
2. When did you last have a piece of cake?: yesterday while i was watching desperate housewives ;D
1 What:
1. What do you really want to achieve in life?: i just wanna do as much shit as i can, cram it all in y'know
The Basics:
Name: Zoe King
School: Meophaaaaaaam
Nationality: English. + a teeny bitta scottish
Hobbies: im a full time paedophile
Love Life:
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: yahuh
Do you like someone?: yeeees
Does anyone like you?: id hope so
Have you ever kissed anyone?: er, yes.
Hugged anyone in the past week?: i've hugged lotsa people (A)
Ever French kissed anyone?: not sure
Friendships:
Who is your best friend(s)?: rosieee +kathi+kat+sam+jack
How long have you known them?: since the very very end of year two, but didnt speak until year 3 xD, since reception, since year , since year 7, since i were 4. :D
Where did you meet them?: she moved to my school
Did you lose any friends this year?: ive lost a few. but tbh they changed. or they just turned out to be an arsehole.
Gain any?: ive gained a lot a lot, they're amaze
Meet a special friend?: as in what i think this means? er, sort of.
Did you hang out with any friends in the past week?: last weekend i spent with sam/kat, glen/crystal+loads of random peoples, then rosie. + school obvs.
2009 (New Years):
Did you do anything at midnight?: ran around katarinas house screaming really loudly :')
Who did you spend it with?: katarina , katherine and an assortment of pets
Did you have any resolutions?: yes, 'stop being a whore' thanks katherine. :L
2009 (Valentines Day):
Did you have a Valentine?: jodie dixon i think :L how times have changed
Did you send out any cards/chocolates/etc?: we did this secret valentines day thing where we all gave homemade presents, i gave rosie some heart shaped cookies, and i've still got my zoe doll. the head fell off. oooh dear
Did you have a boyfriend/girlfriend on this day?: no, none of us did, those were the simple days :D
2009 (Summer):
Did you go on vacation?: non
Did you hang out on the beach with friends?: yeaaa, broadstairs twice
How long was your summer break?: 6 1/2 amaaazing weeks
Did you get a tan?: oh, yes (L)
Did you have a boyfriend/girlfriend during the summer?: sort of. but not officially til right at the end
2009 (Halloween):
Did you go trick or treating? plans got cancelled cos kats mum was ill (N) rosie stayed over
If so, who did you go with?: na
Did you dress up?: no :(
Was it fun?: broadditch was funtimes :D
2009 (Christmas):
Who did you spend it with?: family obvs
Did Santa come to your house?: as he always does :)
Did you stay up until midnight on Christmas Eve?: dont think so, if i did it would have just been on my laptop :L what a fun life i lead
2009 (Your Birthday):
Who did you spend it with?: eeeeh, rosie+kathi+katarina+sam+georgecapon+stefan+john+catherine+aimee+charlie+georgemackey+anyone ive forgotten
What did you do?: camer parrrrk <3 What did you get?: lotsa stuffs, clothes jewellery cd's chocolate moneys etc When is it?: 2nd Maay Have You Evers: [x] Kissed someone (anywhere) [x] Hugged someone [x] Electricuted yourself [x] Climbed more than 60 feet [x] Made a Youtube video [x] Lied to a loved one [x] Had a nosebleed [ ] Gotten airsick [x] Been so bored, you just ate food [x] Not brushed your teeth for a day [x] Not showered for a day [] Eaten Korean BBQ [x] Drank alchohol [x] Smoked [] Had sex [x] Had a pet [] Ran a marathon [x] Had a boyfriend/girlfriend [x] Punched someone Name 5 things you would like to say to people (without naming their names): 1. i want to see you 2. i miss you, i hope you're okay 3. you stupid arrogant stuck up arse, stop acting like we're worthless and that you're mr perfect, because you are really not all that. trust me. 4. thats wrong, frankly you need to make your mind up. and you, sort it out!
5. SORT OUT YOUR ROOTS, and shower! looking at you makes me feel physically sick thankyou.
Name 4 people you can trust with anything:
1. rosie
2. my mum?
3. jack
4. owain+kathi+sam+kat (could not pick, so cheated, muaha!)
Name 3 things you really want:
1. friday night not please
2. you two to really not get together, yuck
3. one of your hoodies, :(
Name 2 people you’ve known the longest (not counting family):
1. jack holmes
2. rosie lockett
Name 1 wish you have for 2010:
1. for it to just be a good year, and for me not to fuck up too much
5 Do’s:
1. Do you play any instruments?: no, i fail miserably
2. Do you play any sports?: only in p.e and they're really not taken seriously
3. Do you believe in 2012?: i believe in the year, not all the shit that supposedly will happen in it
4. Do you like cheese?: sure i like cheese, specially on toast
5. Do you honestly like Obama?: oh-bama, oh-sama, i kid, he seems okay {:
4 If’s:
1. If you were to get $1 Million for breaking up with your boyfriend/girlfriend (if you have one), would you?: what id do, is id tell him i was breaking up with him for a week or so, so i could take the million, then afterwards get back with him and then have a million pound. im smart ;D
2. If you were to get $50,000 for killing a rat, would you?: er yes, like a million rats are killed every day from roadkill and being eaten by other animals, deal with it. and id be set with my £50,000. and if i do it humanely im probably doing it a favour compared to a lot of ways it could die
3. If you were to choose between your best friend and your brother/sister, who would you choose?: rosie, lol. i could live without my sister.
4. If you were to choose between coke/pepsi or sprite/7up, which would you choose?: coke, never gets old
3 How’s:
1. How old do you want to be when you get married?: erm, at least 20.
2. How many siblings do you have?: 1
3. How did your Christmas go (2009)?: was goodtimes :D
2 When’s:
1. When did you have your first kiss?: think it was a dare. wasnt nice lol
2. When did you last have a piece of cake?: yesterday while i was watching desperate housewives ;D
1 What:
1. What do you really want to achieve in life?: i just wanna do as much shit as i can, cram it all in y'know
Monday, 25 January 2010
happy
i wasnt gonna post this, i was gonna just make it a document but y'know, may as well.
if it gets too personal i wont post it.
so here goes;
things that make me happy. this list could be long as my mind wanders.
the butterfly feeling
having a really warm bed when it's cold
my friends + family
moaning about everything to fred
phil
taylor swifts songs
music in general?
when people talk to me who i want to talk to
drawing
sticking stuff on my wall
my scrapbook
hugs
random kisses
coloured glue
ben and jerrys chocolate fudge brownie
laughing hysterically
private jokes that only me + my friends understand :')
blogging ;D
facebook
talking to people who make me laugh and always cheer me up
rosie
my phone
random cute unexpected texts
pasta dn pizza
SUBWAY, oh subway <3 holding hands holding hands whilst running :D running at night walktall EATING. nom! funny t-shirts with cute designs when i feel good about myself when i have good hair/skin/both days blutac. browsing shops, having money letters + notes you. wednesdays, cos i have art snake laughing at people who have really bad pictures (this is mean, but we all do it.) stealing glens hoodies bus chats WYR, when you get a really funny response ruffling george's hair so he gets annoyed at me random, isolated fields living somewhere that has trees and grass (i take this for granted far too much)
amy cooke's hugs
getting ready with my friends, and feeling all pretty (A)
deep talks that aren't scary
the nervous feeling when sending something important, and the relief when they send the response you wanted back
trains
collecting train tickets
collecting bus tickets
collecting crap for my wall/scrapbook/book
the feeling when you've just cleaned your teeth and they're all smooth
when my cat does random funny stuff
getting lost in a really deep good book
laughing at myself because im a muggle
when you feel better after crying
when you wake up and you get that feeling that todays gonna be good
lay ins
being able to wear nice pretty clothes in summer, and then being able to wear loads of layers in winter
katarinas house
katarinas mum
katarinas mums cooking
katarinas fireplace
katarina ;D
when time flies by cos you're having so much fun
when i meet up with all my family and we eat too much food
swimming stupidly, flumes
music that matches your mood
when you get the urge to just randomly start dancing around your room cos the song thats come on is really dancy
bitching, and gossiping and such
yellow car ing, when you punch hem first (:
when the skies really blue
when you wake up to the fact schools closed cos of snow
watching pokemon
when im in a really creative mood and get really inspired
when rosies mum does silly immature stuff like when she kept going on about compare the meerkat
the feeling when you get a supply teacher and the lessons easy
finding an item of clothing you really like
when everything fits nicely into the bag that goes with your outfit
watching chick flicks at sleepovers and knowing all the words
+ then dragging guys to see chick flicks with you
stealing peoples popcorn
throwing popcorn at other people
when you and you're friends are alone in the cinema (only happened once, was awesome{:)
bracelets
having a situation where its perfect to quote mean girls
being able to eat the food you have a craving for
lighters
fireworks
soupy
living in an age where tampons have been invented and women dont have to use bits of yucky rag, mmm
relentless
+ alcohol
sentimental stuff
when you get really cool stuff in slinkies (this year i got a slinky+a stapler, win!)
wednesdays
orange wednesdays
free texts
checkered shirts :D
my lappytoppy
nice smelling shampoo, that you can smell for ages
nice smelling perfume, that never smells yicky
going into boots and spraying all the perfumes onto the little strips, and judging them all
taking photos
my mum + dad
campfires/fires
candles, nice smelling ones
the smell of when you blow out a candle
incense sticks
when its your birthday and everyones really nice to you and you're like woo!
pikachu
webcam
webcam conversations
omegle
my german friend who i met on omegle
water
swimming
the beach
broadstairs
the boat we bought at broadstairs (:
spongebob
jeremy clarkson
top gear?
prawn crackers
cotchdays
pigging out on junk for a day
my collage wall
hot chocolate
funfairs!
when loads of people you know go on the dodgems and you're all hitting each other loads ;D
simple things
when people tell you you look nice
my mushroom hair
mcflurries
bluewater
the spinny chairs at bluewater
the breadsamples at bluewater,
walking around with sam, just eating samples
pretzels
paperchase cute stuff
NEWLOOK
camping
when 3 and more people try and sleep in my room, and we end up laughing so much
benvolio, the alligator joe got me (A)
lightsabers
pokemon cards
happy endings.
im gonna stop now...
if it gets too personal i wont post it.
so here goes;
things that make me happy. this list could be long as my mind wanders.
the butterfly feeling
having a really warm bed when it's cold
my friends + family
moaning about everything to fred
phil
taylor swifts songs
music in general?
when people talk to me who i want to talk to
drawing
sticking stuff on my wall
my scrapbook
hugs
random kisses
coloured glue
ben and jerrys chocolate fudge brownie
laughing hysterically
private jokes that only me + my friends understand :')
blogging ;D
talking to people who make me laugh and always cheer me up
rosie
my phone
random cute unexpected texts
pasta dn pizza
SUBWAY, oh subway <3 holding hands holding hands whilst running :D running at night walktall EATING. nom! funny t-shirts with cute designs when i feel good about myself when i have good hair/skin/both days blutac. browsing shops, having money letters + notes you. wednesdays, cos i have art snake laughing at people who have really bad pictures (this is mean, but we all do it.) stealing glens hoodies bus chats WYR, when you get a really funny response ruffling george's hair so he gets annoyed at me random, isolated fields living somewhere that has trees and grass (i take this for granted far too much)
amy cooke's hugs
getting ready with my friends, and feeling all pretty (A)
deep talks that aren't scary
the nervous feeling when sending something important, and the relief when they send the response you wanted back
trains
collecting train tickets
collecting bus tickets
collecting crap for my wall/scrapbook/book
the feeling when you've just cleaned your teeth and they're all smooth
when my cat does random funny stuff
getting lost in a really deep good book
laughing at myself because im a muggle
when you feel better after crying
when you wake up and you get that feeling that todays gonna be good
lay ins
being able to wear nice pretty clothes in summer, and then being able to wear loads of layers in winter
katarinas house
katarinas mum
katarinas mums cooking
katarinas fireplace
katarina ;D
when time flies by cos you're having so much fun
when i meet up with all my family and we eat too much food
swimming stupidly, flumes
music that matches your mood
when you get the urge to just randomly start dancing around your room cos the song thats come on is really dancy
bitching, and gossiping and such
yellow car ing, when you punch hem first (:
when the skies really blue
when you wake up to the fact schools closed cos of snow
watching pokemon
when im in a really creative mood and get really inspired
when rosies mum does silly immature stuff like when she kept going on about compare the meerkat
the feeling when you get a supply teacher and the lessons easy
finding an item of clothing you really like
when everything fits nicely into the bag that goes with your outfit
watching chick flicks at sleepovers and knowing all the words
+ then dragging guys to see chick flicks with you
stealing peoples popcorn
throwing popcorn at other people
when you and you're friends are alone in the cinema (only happened once, was awesome{:)
bracelets
having a situation where its perfect to quote mean girls
being able to eat the food you have a craving for
lighters
fireworks
soupy
living in an age where tampons have been invented and women dont have to use bits of yucky rag, mmm
relentless
+ alcohol
sentimental stuff
when you get really cool stuff in slinkies (this year i got a slinky+a stapler, win!)
wednesdays
orange wednesdays
free texts
checkered shirts :D
my lappytoppy
nice smelling shampoo, that you can smell for ages
nice smelling perfume, that never smells yicky
going into boots and spraying all the perfumes onto the little strips, and judging them all
taking photos
my mum + dad
campfires/fires
candles, nice smelling ones
the smell of when you blow out a candle
incense sticks
when its your birthday and everyones really nice to you and you're like woo!
pikachu
webcam
webcam conversations
omegle
my german friend who i met on omegle
water
swimming
the beach
broadstairs
the boat we bought at broadstairs (:
spongebob
jeremy clarkson
top gear?
prawn crackers
cotchdays
pigging out on junk for a day
my collage wall
hot chocolate
funfairs!
when loads of people you know go on the dodgems and you're all hitting each other loads ;D
simple things
when people tell you you look nice
my mushroom hair
mcflurries
bluewater
the spinny chairs at bluewater
the breadsamples at bluewater,
walking around with sam, just eating samples
pretzels
paperchase cute stuff
NEWLOOK
camping
when 3 and more people try and sleep in my room, and we end up laughing so much
benvolio, the alligator joe got me (A)
lightsabers
pokemon cards
happy endings.
im gonna stop now...
happiness? +anorexia/fat
ive been watching anorexia stories on youtube, and its really opened my eyes. especially this one;
http://www.youtube.com/user/LouFederer
however, theres then the complete opposite which is what me and rosie were watching about the fat people going to special fat people dance classes and squeezing their stomach flab so their boobs are wobbling out their tops. yuck, its not okay to be fat, it's bad for you! just because you're all grouping together like a 'fatties unite' group, doesnt make it right!
i am not in any way being mean to fat people. it just angered me watching them all say it's good to be fat and implying we should all way 15 stone +.
but im going to be happy staying in the middle. neither is good. neither.
today i actually listened in assembly as it was vaguely interesting, good ol' miss wade! anyways, it was about happiness and everything that makes us happy as people. and i always seem to get sad about stuff (im kind of overdramatic). and im going to list all the stuff that makes me happy + start being grateful+cheerful for what i HAVE got. because what i have got, i've realised, is good.
http://www.youtube.com/user/LouFederer
however, theres then the complete opposite which is what me and rosie were watching about the fat people going to special fat people dance classes and squeezing their stomach flab so their boobs are wobbling out their tops. yuck, its not okay to be fat, it's bad for you! just because you're all grouping together like a 'fatties unite' group, doesnt make it right!
i am not in any way being mean to fat people. it just angered me watching them all say it's good to be fat and implying we should all way 15 stone +.
but im going to be happy staying in the middle. neither is good. neither.
today i actually listened in assembly as it was vaguely interesting, good ol' miss wade! anyways, it was about happiness and everything that makes us happy as people. and i always seem to get sad about stuff (im kind of overdramatic). and im going to list all the stuff that makes me happy + start being grateful+cheerful for what i HAVE got. because what i have got, i've realised, is good.
Sunday, 24 January 2010
party on down + kittens + glen.
hello peoples :D
i got back like 15 minutes ago, and played with cocoa+pixie for a bit, which was rather entertainging because they chase anything. ANYTHING. even my head. ;D and they are now kind of running around the room chasing random stuff and sniffing glen who has just kind of mumbled euuuurgh, and stroked what i think was cocoa. yeah cocoa. he's is very tired bless, because i discovered today he is a rather massive lightweight :P shameful tbh.
but i met loads of people who id only known on facebook or not at all which was funtimes :') i hugged peoples, and scrounged off everyones drinks. mainly nathans and tims, who i found out is only 15, looks like 19? was AMAZED, i tell you amazed!
i can hear constant trickling from the fishtank, mer. both cats have gone. i am unnerved, they may attack my poor feet at any moment :O
omg, i just remembered, we was crossing the road on the way back to the train station, AND HE FELL OVER IN THE MIDDLE OF IT. aha, goodtimes :')
anyways, ima go, glen appears to have collapsed/layed down on the living room floor. i think im going to go and have to and poke him to see if he's alive. oph wait he is, he just got back up, oh no, down again! :')
x
i got back like 15 minutes ago, and played with cocoa+pixie for a bit, which was rather entertainging because they chase anything. ANYTHING. even my head. ;D and they are now kind of running around the room chasing random stuff and sniffing glen who has just kind of mumbled euuuurgh, and stroked what i think was cocoa. yeah cocoa. he's is very tired bless, because i discovered today he is a rather massive lightweight :P shameful tbh.
but i met loads of people who id only known on facebook or not at all which was funtimes :') i hugged peoples, and scrounged off everyones drinks. mainly nathans and tims, who i found out is only 15, looks like 19? was AMAZED, i tell you amazed!
i can hear constant trickling from the fishtank, mer. both cats have gone. i am unnerved, they may attack my poor feet at any moment :O
omg, i just remembered, we was crossing the road on the way back to the train station, AND HE FELL OVER IN THE MIDDLE OF IT. aha, goodtimes :')
anyways, ima go, glen appears to have collapsed/layed down on the living room floor. i think im going to go and have to and poke him to see if he's alive. oph wait he is, he just got back up, oh no, down again! :')
x
Saturday, 23 January 2010
informations
hello dudeys
i was given a laptop so thought i might blog
i am at glenny's
i think we're leaving soon
crystal has lost the invite, smart!
total wipeout if on in the background.
and cocoa is sniffing my foot. woo.
;D
i was given a laptop so thought i might blog
i am at glenny's
i think we're leaving soon
crystal has lost the invite, smart!
total wipeout if on in the background.
and cocoa is sniffing my foot. woo.
;D
Friday, 22 January 2010
i had pie for dinner
its right, i did. yummyness (:
i stuck some more stuff on my wall as well, i cut up a few pages of last years calendar (spongebob;D) and they are now dotted around my room :) my room is a giant collage, soon i will run out of space |: i worry about that day constantly, i will have to take stuff down and this will be heartbreaking (U)
i have this weekend planned now (funny how plans slot into place the day before they're gonna happen:P) ; town with sam+kat tomorrow :D then bus to glens, train to party, then party, then stay at glens, then stagger home tired and possibly (but hopefully not) hungover on sunday. BOOYA.
i got home today and my dad was half asleep on the sofa cos he had to stay at home all day as our fridge was being delivered. i made the most of this,:L he agreed for kat staying next week, my plans for tomorrow, and to pick us up from the zambia show, am happy now. but the fridge is all silver and moderny, i like it, its giant :L and squarey. muaha!
i am off to go get changed into my pajamas now, and clean my teeth etc, then 8 out of 10 cats at 10, then probably back on the old bookface. jesus, my life is so thrilling! :')
i stuck some more stuff on my wall as well, i cut up a few pages of last years calendar (spongebob;D) and they are now dotted around my room :) my room is a giant collage, soon i will run out of space |: i worry about that day constantly, i will have to take stuff down and this will be heartbreaking (U)
i have this weekend planned now (funny how plans slot into place the day before they're gonna happen:P) ; town with sam+kat tomorrow :D then bus to glens, train to party, then party, then stay at glens, then stagger home tired and possibly (but hopefully not) hungover on sunday. BOOYA.
i got home today and my dad was half asleep on the sofa cos he had to stay at home all day as our fridge was being delivered. i made the most of this,:L he agreed for kat staying next week, my plans for tomorrow, and to pick us up from the zambia show, am happy now. but the fridge is all silver and moderny, i like it, its giant :L and squarey. muaha!
i am off to go get changed into my pajamas now, and clean my teeth etc, then 8 out of 10 cats at 10, then probably back on the old bookface. jesus, my life is so thrilling! :')
Thursday, 21 January 2010
scatterbrained injectiony arty thursdayeyfridayey artness.
i was sitting on my bed listening to nickelback earlier, and i realised its incredibly annoying when your drawings come out wrong.
i mean im not bad at drawing, like to think im pretty good cos i like art, but i get so pissed off when nothing comes out right.
and then i went downstairs and ate pizza and watch simpsons.
goodtimes :D
i need to have a bath soon though, because i smell.
yesterday in form, mr sheaf came in saying that after we'd had form the previous day and his YA had gone in the room had stunk of b.o. then he started talking about getting to our age and needing to shower more, oh it was hilarious :')
and today everyone was kind of depressed? all the girls in my form were pissed off with stuff, and in p.e it was like WOA, need a happy vibe! so generally when this happens i start singing or dancing, which i did in form and p.e. i think people are sort of used to this now. i had a little chat with amy in form about why she was pissed off, and personally, the reason for this is good, and to YOU, i think you're a dick. when you're in the wrong don't shift the blame to other people. and you're in my film trailer, YUCKY YUCK YUCK! seriously, you put everyone in a bad mood, pooface. and the other reason, you brought it on yourself, don't say stuff like that and then wonder why you get in trouble. its your own fault love.
so i danced around form for a bit, then went to p.e where i got lectured about my effort. I WAS JOINING IN. you just weren't watching. mheeer. besides, i dont wanna do pe anyway, i dont enjoy running around a muddy field getting shoes I LIKE dirty and kicking a ball that never goes in the right direction for me. i suck at football, deal with it! if you want me to do well, give me something i like doing. there are tons of sports i like, yet you chose to do the one i hate the most. POOFACE BIGNOSE. i hopes we're inside for pe tomorrow. or at least doing something FUN.
:D
rantyness over.
today felt like a friday which i thought meant id get a bitta fish and chips, but then it was thursday so i had curry and watkins went home :(((( sad stuff. but tomorrow is friday then the next day is saturday which means there's no school. and what happened to the snow we were supposed to get wednesday?! disspointed.
oh yeah arts going well, i got my stencil done in the double lesson, but had an injection which was okay. made me all woozy, like i was gonna go sleep or faint, just a weird feeling. but im getting so many injections recently im kind of bored of them. well not bored, just past caring.
saturday i have a party im going to, but no idea what to wear goddammit. i will find something though, will have to. probably just wear jeans and a top cos i gotta get bus to station, then a train. plus i dont wanna wear anything particularly nice in case i get puked on or something. yumyumyum.
but i am sort of looking forward to it. i will probably regret this on sunday though. if you see what i mean there.. :L
i think im done now, sorry if this blog was kind of scatterbrained.
i mean im not bad at drawing, like to think im pretty good cos i like art, but i get so pissed off when nothing comes out right.
and then i went downstairs and ate pizza and watch simpsons.
goodtimes :D
i need to have a bath soon though, because i smell.
yesterday in form, mr sheaf came in saying that after we'd had form the previous day and his YA had gone in the room had stunk of b.o. then he started talking about getting to our age and needing to shower more, oh it was hilarious :')
and today everyone was kind of depressed? all the girls in my form were pissed off with stuff, and in p.e it was like WOA, need a happy vibe! so generally when this happens i start singing or dancing, which i did in form and p.e. i think people are sort of used to this now. i had a little chat with amy in form about why she was pissed off, and personally, the reason for this is good, and to YOU, i think you're a dick. when you're in the wrong don't shift the blame to other people. and you're in my film trailer, YUCKY YUCK YUCK! seriously, you put everyone in a bad mood, pooface. and the other reason, you brought it on yourself, don't say stuff like that and then wonder why you get in trouble. its your own fault love.
so i danced around form for a bit, then went to p.e where i got lectured about my effort. I WAS JOINING IN. you just weren't watching. mheeer. besides, i dont wanna do pe anyway, i dont enjoy running around a muddy field getting shoes I LIKE dirty and kicking a ball that never goes in the right direction for me. i suck at football, deal with it! if you want me to do well, give me something i like doing. there are tons of sports i like, yet you chose to do the one i hate the most. POOFACE BIGNOSE. i hopes we're inside for pe tomorrow. or at least doing something FUN.
:D
rantyness over.
today felt like a friday which i thought meant id get a bitta fish and chips, but then it was thursday so i had curry and watkins went home :(((( sad stuff. but tomorrow is friday then the next day is saturday which means there's no school. and what happened to the snow we were supposed to get wednesday?! disspointed.
oh yeah arts going well, i got my stencil done in the double lesson, but had an injection which was okay. made me all woozy, like i was gonna go sleep or faint, just a weird feeling. but im getting so many injections recently im kind of bored of them. well not bored, just past caring.
saturday i have a party im going to, but no idea what to wear goddammit. i will find something though, will have to. probably just wear jeans and a top cos i gotta get bus to station, then a train. plus i dont wanna wear anything particularly nice in case i get puked on or something. yumyumyum.
but i am sort of looking forward to it. i will probably regret this on sunday though. if you see what i mean there.. :L
i think im done now, sorry if this blog was kind of scatterbrained.
Monday, 18 January 2010
bring me the curry
i had a good weekend yes i did {: saturday night was jokes ;D all the curry, and truths, and shiz, good times. then bluewater was rather fun. saw all the people we knew in like 10 seconds of sitting at a table. including that :L
then owain and jak came and they always know how to make me laugh yeah, got lots of hugs and chats. apart from the smoking, thats yuck yuck. and me and sam say this everytime :')
overall a good day sunday :D
monday though, bleeeeurgh. i always look ESPECIALLY tired on monday's and i feel like a zombie :')
tomorrow is walktall, but am gonna be there late because of smelly katarina and her drama. which i bet involves effing mia being huffy. but i'l get to watch i hopes, muahaha.
MIA DOES NOT APPROVE.
back off ne-yo, mia's back ;D
shes so badmans.
oh , im in a good mood :')
just vaccuumed my room, and made my bed. which now i think about it was kind of stupid since in like half an hour i'l just be sleeping in it again. but i dont have time in mornings D: godammit.
then owain and jak came and they always know how to make me laugh yeah, got lots of hugs and chats. apart from the smoking, thats yuck yuck. and me and sam say this everytime :')
overall a good day sunday :D
tomorrow is walktall, but am gonna be there late because of smelly katarina and her drama. which i bet involves effing mia being huffy. but i'l get to watch i hopes, muahaha.
MIA DOES NOT APPROVE.
back off ne-yo, mia's back ;D
shes so badmans.
oh , im in a good mood :')
just vaccuumed my room, and made my bed. which now i think about it was kind of stupid since in like half an hour i'l just be sleeping in it again. but i dont have time in mornings D: godammit.
Friday, 15 January 2010
effing nunga nungas
i love sickipedia, makes me officially lol :D
i have my weekend properly planned now, me and rosie are gonna sleep at sams saturday night, and then bluewater with them +sam/olly on sunday {: i am reserving judgement on that case, but im pretty sure i know whats gonna happen. but im opened to being proved wrong ;)
i laaaav rosie, shes always right. we should all try to be happy, it will make life better. its hard to do sometimes, but where has being sad and hateful ever got anyone? (not focussed at anyone, *ahem*) plus she's always besen there and only ever wants the best for people. thank you for everything (:♥
one thing thats bugging me so much atm, on 4od there is an ad, it comes up a lot. it says, i quote, "have you wondered, why all supercars are two seaters" then shows some sort of crappy new smartcar i think it is, im too angered at this point to care. NOT ALL SUPERCARS ARE TWO SEATERS. not to mention the fact the car you're advertising is not even nice, and has no right to casually throw out the window all the lovely 4 seated supercars out there. i want this advert sued please.
my room needs a tidy. i went through a phase where it was permanently tidy, vaccuumed and organised. i think that was the holidays where i had people over lots. now it needs a vaccuum, and another tidy. it gets messy so easily :'( stupid small roomness. but i do got a telly on my wall now, BOOYA. and my collages on my walls, get more crap added every day, i love it. i just worry for the day i run out of wallspace :|
everything will sort itself out, i am young, i am learning :D and im gonna have as much fun as i can tbh.
and now i am off to clean my teeth then snuggle up in my duvet whilst watching 8 out of 10 cats, a good night to you!
i have my weekend properly planned now, me and rosie are gonna sleep at sams saturday night, and then bluewater with them +sam/olly on sunday {: i am reserving judgement on that case, but im pretty sure i know whats gonna happen. but im opened to being proved wrong ;)
i laaaav rosie, shes always right. we should all try to be happy, it will make life better. its hard to do sometimes, but where has being sad and hateful ever got anyone? (not focussed at anyone, *ahem*) plus she's always besen there and only ever wants the best for people. thank you for everything (:♥
one thing thats bugging me so much atm, on 4od there is an ad, it comes up a lot. it says, i quote, "have you wondered, why all supercars are two seaters" then shows some sort of crappy new smartcar i think it is, im too angered at this point to care. NOT ALL SUPERCARS ARE TWO SEATERS. not to mention the fact the car you're advertising is not even nice, and has no right to casually throw out the window all the lovely 4 seated supercars out there. i want this advert sued please.
my room needs a tidy. i went through a phase where it was permanently tidy, vaccuumed and organised. i think that was the holidays where i had people over lots. now it needs a vaccuum, and another tidy. it gets messy so easily :'( stupid small roomness. but i do got a telly on my wall now, BOOYA. and my collages on my walls, get more crap added every day, i love it. i just worry for the day i run out of wallspace :|
everything will sort itself out, i am young, i am learning :D and im gonna have as much fun as i can tbh.
and now i am off to clean my teeth then snuggle up in my duvet whilst watching 8 out of 10 cats, a good night to you!
if life's a game i'm losing
i think im pretty much losing faith in all the things i thought i wouldnt lose faith in. so much is going on around me, and now my life is starting to plummet towards the cold ground too.
somethings you don't want to know. but at the same time you're glad you know them, because it least you know the truth. which is probably one of the least told things these days.
in my school there is a game that is actually not blocked on the computers so i play it a lot :P and today it made me realise something. the aim of the game is to keep climbing the blocks without being crushed or have the acid or whatever that red liquid is catch up with you. its a strangely good metaphor for life.
let me explain what i mean.
i am the little white rectangle that is climbing, climbing, climbing as high as possible. it dodges all the massive blocks coming down towards it and even the little ones, which still make the difference. and then, eventually, you get crushed. after dodging so much, one thing crushes you. to nothing. and if you're lucky and you dodge them all then eventually the acid will get you, no matter how long it takes.
it makes perfect sense to me.
i wish life was simple, people couldnt lie, and i'd kill to read peoples minds for a day to find out what they really think.
i know things will sort themselves out, but with the people in this world existing, and acting the way they do, eventually one of those big blocks will crush me.
somethings you don't want to know. but at the same time you're glad you know them, because it least you know the truth. which is probably one of the least told things these days.
in my school there is a game that is actually not blocked on the computers so i play it a lot :P and today it made me realise something. the aim of the game is to keep climbing the blocks without being crushed or have the acid or whatever that red liquid is catch up with you. its a strangely good metaphor for life.
let me explain what i mean.
i am the little white rectangle that is climbing, climbing, climbing as high as possible. it dodges all the massive blocks coming down towards it and even the little ones, which still make the difference. and then, eventually, you get crushed. after dodging so much, one thing crushes you. to nothing. and if you're lucky and you dodge them all then eventually the acid will get you, no matter how long it takes.
it makes perfect sense to me.
i wish life was simple, people couldnt lie, and i'd kill to read peoples minds for a day to find out what they really think.
i know things will sort themselves out, but with the people in this world existing, and acting the way they do, eventually one of those big blocks will crush me.
Thursday, 14 January 2010
i miss the simple life
eurgh, poofaces.
i figure out exactly what im going to say to you, and then you just stop me. why does everything ruin everything. its so hard to balance everything nowadays.
oh right, you dont know, now theres a surprise.
life used to be simple, i miss that.
and i miss owain. its been too long since ive seen him.
i figure out exactly what im going to say to you, and then you just stop me. why does everything ruin everything. its so hard to balance everything nowadays.
oh right, you dont know, now theres a surprise.
life used to be simple, i miss that.
and i miss owain. its been too long since ive seen him.
today i'm not really sure what's truth
i hate saying something that you didnt mean to sound the way it did. especially over the internet, because people can't hear how you're saying it.
and then there are all these different consequences, because every reaction has an equal and opposite reaction. and now i'm so confused, theres scraps of information coming at me from all directions and i don't even know what's going on here anymore, except everyone agrees that you are a dick. lies are based around truth, truth is based around lies. i know what you are telling me is truth, but i don't know how much. because people lie without meaning to.
and the most annoying thing is when somethings good, then without you even realising it all falls apart around you. like you've had your eyes closed, but purely because you weren't actually there for something that involved you greatly.
confused much? i know i am ;D
and then there are all these different consequences, because every reaction has an equal and opposite reaction. and now i'm so confused, theres scraps of information coming at me from all directions and i don't even know what's going on here anymore, except everyone agrees that you are a dick. lies are based around truth, truth is based around lies. i know what you are telling me is truth, but i don't know how much. because people lie without meaning to.
and the most annoying thing is when somethings good, then without you even realising it all falls apart around you. like you've had your eyes closed, but purely because you weren't actually there for something that involved you greatly.
confused much? i know i am ;D
im bored.
Ten Things i wish i could say to ten different people (but don't say their name):
1) it's gonna be okay.
2) talk to me first please ;D
3) im sorry.
4) i don't like you, piss off. :L
5) you're a dick, stop saying all this arseholey stuff.
6) you're amazing, thankyou.
7) don't ignore me.
8) i miss you.
9) i know you're lying.
10) don't you get when i'm ignoring you ffs? i know you don't have any friends or anything but when someone hasn't spoken to you for 2 months at all then you should get the message that repeatedly saying 'hi u ok' to me ISN'T going to make me want to talk to you. you're a creep, leave me alone.
Nine things about myself:
1) im loud, bossy and stubborn.
2) i know quite a lot of people, and always randomly see people i know when i'm out
3) im not very smart, but im pretty sick of people telling me this
4) i only have one slipper on atm because i can't seem to find the other one
5) the only subject at school i like all the time is art
6) but my personal sketchpad is full of random doodlings
7) forever am i looking for 'numero 11'
8) my cats name is fred. i love him lots.
9) i make a lot of mistakes. a lot.
Eight ways to win my heart:
1) make me laugh.
2) care.
3) hugs. a lot of hugs.
4) talk.
5) sentimental stuff, i like all that {:
6) don't be clingy or plan my life for me, or i will just feel really trapped.
7) be my friend too.
8) don't tell me i can do better, that pisses me off. its my decision whether i want better.
Seven things that cross my mind alot:
1) eurgh, fuck off i dont actually like you!
2) oh crap, i actually just said that..
3) i'm wrong. proved stupid again.
4) im hungry, foodfoodfood<3
5) wtf was that?!
6) talk to me first because otherwise i dont know what to say :/
7) oh just shut up fgs!
Six things I do before I fall asleep:
1) shut my computer down
2) turn my tv off at the mains
3) read a little bit of whatever book im reading atm
4) plump the pillows ;D
5) think about stuff thats happened/happening/going to happen
6) er, pull the duvet over me?
Five people who mean alot to me:
1) rosie
2) katherine
3) katarina
4) samm
5) glen
Two things you want to do before you die:
1) see the world
2) live.
One confession:
i just peed my pants.
1) it's gonna be okay.
2) talk to me first please ;D
3) im sorry.
4) i don't like you, piss off. :L
5) you're a dick, stop saying all this arseholey stuff.
6) you're amazing, thankyou.
7) don't ignore me.
8) i miss you.
9) i know you're lying.
10) don't you get when i'm ignoring you ffs? i know you don't have any friends or anything but when someone hasn't spoken to you for 2 months at all then you should get the message that repeatedly saying 'hi u ok' to me ISN'T going to make me want to talk to you. you're a creep, leave me alone.
Nine things about myself:
1) im loud, bossy and stubborn.
2) i know quite a lot of people, and always randomly see people i know when i'm out
3) im not very smart, but im pretty sick of people telling me this
4) i only have one slipper on atm because i can't seem to find the other one
5) the only subject at school i like all the time is art
6) but my personal sketchpad is full of random doodlings
7) forever am i looking for 'numero 11'
8) my cats name is fred. i love him lots.
9) i make a lot of mistakes. a lot.
Eight ways to win my heart:
1) make me laugh.
2) care.
3) hugs. a lot of hugs.
4) talk.
5) sentimental stuff, i like all that {:
6) don't be clingy or plan my life for me, or i will just feel really trapped.
7) be my friend too.
8) don't tell me i can do better, that pisses me off. its my decision whether i want better.
Seven things that cross my mind alot:
1) eurgh, fuck off i dont actually like you!
2) oh crap, i actually just said that..
3) i'm wrong. proved stupid again.
4) im hungry, foodfoodfood<3
5) wtf was that?!
6) talk to me first because otherwise i dont know what to say :/
7) oh just shut up fgs!
Six things I do before I fall asleep:
1) shut my computer down
2) turn my tv off at the mains
3) read a little bit of whatever book im reading atm
4) plump the pillows ;D
5) think about stuff thats happened/happening/going to happen
6) er, pull the duvet over me?
Five people who mean alot to me:
1) rosie
2) katherine
3) katarina
4) samm
5) glen
Two things you want to do before you die:
1) see the world
2) live.
One confession:
i just peed my pants.
Wednesday, 13 January 2010
gonna be a long long way to happy
i've learnt what comes up must come down.
nothing lasts.
and i take too much for granted.
you don't know what you've got until its gone.
nothing lasts.
and i take too much for granted.
you don't know what you've got until its gone.
Monday, 11 January 2010
im amazing at stories, and a load of random bursts of thought you probably wont understand
i like talking like this. its strange how bad stuff brings good stuff out.
i guess i should remember in life that no matter how much crap is thrown at you something good will always come out.
i told glen a story today when he asked me what happened in the bath:P
well i think i must have died by drowning for a time, because i found myself in a field somewhere. it was strange, the grass was all blue, but sort of mouldy? like really old cheese but slightly different, in a grassy sort of cheese way. so i was slightly unnerved by all this, so i got out of my bathtub and went to have a look around. i found a hammock, that looked like it was woven from unicorn fur, because of the glistening substance - it sparkled in the sunlight. i ignored the hammock because i didnt really feel tired, and walked further away from my bathtub into the distance. i found myself in a strange forest, except all the treetrunks were made of gold, and had leaves that were all black and singed, they smelt funny. and then all of a sudden i was surrounded by ghosts. they didnt look threatening, just your typical ghosts really. kind of transparent, and whitish. these ghosts came to told me all this stuff about the future and the past, and idk if i should tell you because it was pretty scary stuff tbh. im actually scarred for life, and now i know all the answers im not sure i want to live anymore.
but anyway,
i couldnt find the ending, goddamn you stupid facebook chat.
i have injections tomorrow, fml.
eurgh i hate when you dont know what to say. fml.
i need to pack my stuff for tmoorrow. eurgh, well at least these injections get me out of maths i guess.
me hairs wet, dry already.
im scared.
bye.
i guess i should remember in life that no matter how much crap is thrown at you something good will always come out.
i told glen a story today when he asked me what happened in the bath:P
well i think i must have died by drowning for a time, because i found myself in a field somewhere. it was strange, the grass was all blue, but sort of mouldy? like really old cheese but slightly different, in a grassy sort of cheese way. so i was slightly unnerved by all this, so i got out of my bathtub and went to have a look around. i found a hammock, that looked like it was woven from unicorn fur, because of the glistening substance - it sparkled in the sunlight. i ignored the hammock because i didnt really feel tired, and walked further away from my bathtub into the distance. i found myself in a strange forest, except all the treetrunks were made of gold, and had leaves that were all black and singed, they smelt funny. and then all of a sudden i was surrounded by ghosts. they didnt look threatening, just your typical ghosts really. kind of transparent, and whitish. these ghosts came to told me all this stuff about the future and the past, and idk if i should tell you because it was pretty scary stuff tbh. im actually scarred for life, and now i know all the answers im not sure i want to live anymore.
but anyway,
i couldnt find the ending, goddamn you stupid facebook chat.
i have injections tomorrow, fml.
eurgh i hate when you dont know what to say. fml.
i need to pack my stuff for tmoorrow. eurgh, well at least these injections get me out of maths i guess.
me hairs wet, dry already.
im scared.
bye.
Sunday, 10 January 2010
i feel lame writing this, but i was bored and i saw bonnie did it
Who is this person you call your boyfriend? sven ;D
Tell me about him; age, height, skin color, body type, stereotype? 15, 5'8? ..white? SKINNY, erm..skater?(hes got hate for stereotypes)
What color eyes does he have? Do you like this color? bluey greyish. sure i like em.
What color is his hair? Is it the same color as your's? its blondey, a bit lighter than mine.
Do you like his looks or personality better? depends what mood im in and what personality he's wearing. generally personality though if i had to chose
What is the color he wears most in his wardrobe? lumberjack jackets ;D erm idk, every colour tbh. no-one wears one colour really.
Does he have a higher or a deeper voice? i dont really notice i guess cos im used to it..but in the middle id say
Is he too skinny, too fat, or just right; in your opinion? hes skinny, but without the 'too' in front, because he eats tons and stays the same :P
Does he have any piercings or tattoos of any kind? non
Do you approve of him getting more of those if he has them already? erm, if it looks good im open [:
Do many girls think he's attractive or do they not have interest in him? idk, i try not to dwell on all that stuff
Does he belong to the bad boy, artist, over-achiever, etc. persona? if i had to chose out of them i'd say artist i think
Do you ever lie to him when you say he looks cute, adorable, etc? im a bad liar anyway normally, so no
Does he have a better smile or nice eyes? never really compared, they're kind of too different
Is he taller than you? Does he weigh more than you do? yes, and no- ¬.¬
Where does he get the majority of the clothes he wears? nathan ;D lol
Do many people stereotype him? What do they label him as anyway? if he was stereotyped it would probably be under 'skater' because he, well he skates. but he hates being stereotyped into anything. even though he shouts 'greb' out a lot to other people. hmmm, LOL ;D
Is he muscular? If so, do you like him this way? not muscular. but he regularly shoves me :L idk, i wouldnt want someone really really muscly, be kind of overwhelming and scary for me
Do you know if he's ever had braces before? Does he have them now? i dont think he ever has
Describe his hairstyle to me: flickeh. and smoooooooooooooth ;)
What would you say is the best quality in his personality? he makes me laugh, and he can be really sweet (sometimes..:P)
Is he sweet to you most of the time, or is he mean towards you? he can be so sweet, but sometimes it pisses me off when hes mean. but normally he isnt, so its all good{:
Use three adjectives to describe his personality: funny, cute and NERDY(L)
Is he sweet? Caring? Thoughtful? Deep? Honest? Emotional? Mean? depends what moods hes in and who hes with.
Does he ever go out drinking? Is this something you're concerned about? yes, and no. everyone drinks:D
Does he have any nasty habits? What are they? molesting my cat ;)
If you had to choose an emotion to describe him, what would it be? hmm, happy?
Is he more spontaneous or romantic? they can be the same thing a lot of the time. but definitely spontaneous :P
Is he more serious or funny? funny (:
Does he ever really open up emotionally to you? Is he that way to everyone? occasionally. & no.
When he buys you something, is it more of a value or thought concept? ..neither
Does he ever take you to sweet and romantic places? no
Was he ever mean at you at some point? yes
Does he truly care about how you feel and what you have to say? id like to think he cares. but you can never really truly know because you never know what someones really thinking do you?
Does he listen to you often or does he tune you out? like i said, you never know what someone else is truly thinking.
Is he usually more optomist or pessimistic? normally optimistic. but sometimes pessimistic
Does he intentionally try to hurt your feelings? Do you know why he does it? sometimes, but i dont think its intentionally + because he wants to be a badmans. ;D
Does he ever play around with your mind? hes confusing
Does he treat you like you're royalty? somtimes (:
Does he have the ability to kill you emotionally? nope, i wouldnt let him.
When did you two begin dating anyways? 8th january, but for the first time 3rd september
Did he ask you out or were you the one who asked him out? first time he asked me, second time he asked but in a kind of non storybook way, lol.
How long had you two known each other before you started dating? like, 2 years? i didnt know him well or talk to him much though, he knew kathi/kat/rosie more before he knew me
Was it love at first sight, or do you even believe in that stuff? i dont believe in it. it sounds bad but i dont. purely 'falling in love' with someone because of what they look like is a really crappy foundation in my opinion.
How long had you had a crush on him before you started dating? lol, these are all hard to answer because its the second time. erm, first time like 3 weeks? and second time, well ever since the start of them 3 weeks still. but plus about 4 months ;D lol, sounds really confusing.
Did he/you say yes automatically, or what it a 'I'll think about it' thing? it took time, but he asked + i said yes because that time i was ready. and the second time i said yes instantly as well.
When did you two first kiss? erm, i dont remember dates of stuff like that, i forget too easily
Had you all kissed before you actually officially started dating? no
When was your first date and where was it at? official 'date' was double with kathi+will too see fame so at bluewater. but we meet up normally with people more tbh
Do you all ever still go on dates to this place? bluewater is where everyone goes:P
Does he ever hold you hand in public, or do you all avoid this? i like holding hands{:
Are you all into the 'public display of affection' thing? no, i dont think its that nice to get off with people in front of everyone tbh
Does he walk around with his arm around your waist? sometimes
When you all are kissing, does he ever play with your hair? i like it when he plays with my hair, but he normally doesnt. unless hes messing it up, which he enjoys. *sigh* :L
Does he ever intentionally try to embarass you? sometimes he just insults me because thats what people do to me, im 'so easy to insult' but i dont normally get embaressed because im used to it :P
Were either one of you a virgin before you met each other? both id hope.. :P
Are you both virgins now, or have you all had sex before? virggggggins, ;D
Is this relationship more based on love or lust? love, now. id hope.
Is there anything about him that you absolutely cannot stand? his casual loud swearing in crowded places. normally the ones with little children present. i dislike that
Do you feel closer to him than anyone else you associate with? romantically i do obvs, but not emotionally. hes not the one id go to with my problems
Tell me exactly in detail how he makes you feel: confused, hopeful, and happy.
Could you ever see yourself living with him? i dont look far into the future tbh, it scares me too much, i think living with any one of my friends would be pretty entertaining, him included:P
Do you two even live in the same town/go to the same school? 15 minuteish drive, same school
Would you say you're truly in love with this boy? im 14, i doubt i know what love is yet. but what i know of love so far, is good. :D
When did you start feeling this way about him, if you have before? recently.
Have you ever kissed him underwater, in a tree or below the stars? no
Have you two ever sat and watched a sunset or sunrise together? never officially watched it, seen it though
Do you two share a lot of the same interests? Examples, please? some. pokemon ;D and we have anough in common to get by, but enough differences to make it interesting {: if you were exactly the same it would be boring.
How often would you say he makes you cry, if he does at all in any way? not often. recently i've cried though. but i had reason :P im not really a crying person tbh
Has he ever written you a sweet note that made you cry happy tears? ive had notes of random drawings, they didnt make me cry though :L
Do you seriously think this relationship could last forever? im too young for forever.
Is this really more than puppy love? whats puppy love exactly, i thought it was teenage love?
How often does he call you and how often do you call him? he never calls me because he never has credit, when unless hes on his homephone. sometimes i phone him, normally when we're out and i need to though
Has he ever let you wear any of his clothes before? Which items? hoodies, hats, earmuffs, shoes, coats, i go on:P
If you go to school with him, do you two have any classes together? same school, different years+different houses, so none.
Has he ever given you a hickey? er, no..
Have you ever given him one before? No.
Have you two ever been on a date to an amusement park? non, if love to though :P
When you watch movies together, does he hold you close in his arms? i havent watched that many movies with him, more tv. and then yes [: but i like being held close with or without movies its nice
Describe how he smells: Is it good or bad? yummeh ;D and when he sleeps over of about a ton of my deodorant, he has a thing with knocking them all off the shelf then using them all. :L
When your sad, broken down and crying, what does he do to comfort you? hes not normally there
Have you two ever shared food or a drink with one another? i steal his food normally. :P
Does he make you feel like you have butterflies in your stomach? a lot less than he used to, the butterfly feeling fades after a while :( but still somtimes is there :D
Would you say your love is completely cliche' or simple? Simple.
Has anyone ever accused you of being obsessed with him? no. im not obsessive, lol
Do you two ever go to the movies? Do you just make out the whole time? yes, no. i like watching the films lol
Does he actually have the ability to make you laugh? all the time
What would you say if your last dying words were to him? er, in the movies they always say 'i love you' in a really strained voice. id like to do that, im cool (H)
Do you consider him a part of you? everyone you nkow is a part of ykn
How do his kisses make you feel? disgusted¬¬ how do you think?
Does he ever take up for you and defend you? hes stuck up for me before
Would you say he's overbearing when it comes to protecting you? nope. i wouldnt want that anyway.
What is the sweetest thing he's ever done towards you? its the little things really isnt it
Do you all have a song that symbolizes your relationship? taylor swift always has something that sums up how im feeling.
Do you ever keep the notes he writes and things he makes you? i keep everything and put it in my book/scrapbook/wall. im a hoarder, lol.
When was the last time you two hung out? bluewater in the crimbo holidays. bad day.
When is the next time you two will hang out? er, next weekend?
Does he normally explain to you how much you mean to him? no..
Do people think your relationship is cute or immature and unnecessary? immature. i like being immature, its more fun :D
Does he have any crazy ex's who are obsessed with him? he has ex's, some i know and they are pretty crazy in a fun way ;D but not obsessed with him
Do you have any crazy ex's who are still obsessed with you? why would they be obsessed with me, lol
Have you two ever broken up before? How many times, to be exact? yes, once.
Have you two ever had a pregnancy scare? no..he told me i was pregnant once. over xbox, as you do ;)
Do you two live with each other? non
Do you two share most of the same friends/aquaintences? yeah, hes friends with most of my friends, and i know some of his unit friendlings.
Are you jealous of any girls in his life and is he jealous of any guys? im not jealous because they're in his life. but i get jealous when people are prettier than me, god damn those godblessed bitches. ;D erm, if he got jealous of all the guys i talk to he wouldnt be able to keep up, im friends with a lot of guys, lol.
Has he ever said anything to you that just, made your heart melt? yes :D like i said, he can be enormously sweet sometimes <3
Does he like the people you hang out with? yea, they're his chums. :L
Do you like the people he hangs out with? i know a few. and they're okay. a few are kind of arseholes first impression. but then they turn out okay.
Has he ever spent the night at your house? yeah, he always seems to end up staying on the spur of the moment, lol
Have you ever spend the night at his house? no
What is something you love most about him? his clothes, i like stealing them {: + the hugs, gotta love hugs
Could you see yourself one day marrying him? eurgh, marraige. eurgh kids. eurgh general adult life. LET ME BE YOUNG ! :'(
Tell me about him; age, height, skin color, body type, stereotype? 15, 5'8? ..white? SKINNY, erm..skater?(hes got hate for stereotypes)
What color eyes does he have? Do you like this color? bluey greyish. sure i like em.
What color is his hair? Is it the same color as your's? its blondey, a bit lighter than mine.
Do you like his looks or personality better? depends what mood im in and what personality he's wearing. generally personality though if i had to chose
What is the color he wears most in his wardrobe? lumberjack jackets ;D erm idk, every colour tbh. no-one wears one colour really.
Does he have a higher or a deeper voice? i dont really notice i guess cos im used to it..but in the middle id say
Is he too skinny, too fat, or just right; in your opinion? hes skinny, but without the 'too' in front, because he eats tons and stays the same :P
Does he have any piercings or tattoos of any kind? non
Do you approve of him getting more of those if he has them already? erm, if it looks good im open [:
Do many girls think he's attractive or do they not have interest in him? idk, i try not to dwell on all that stuff
Does he belong to the bad boy, artist, over-achiever, etc. persona? if i had to chose out of them i'd say artist i think
Do you ever lie to him when you say he looks cute, adorable, etc? im a bad liar anyway normally, so no
Does he have a better smile or nice eyes? never really compared, they're kind of too different
Is he taller than you? Does he weigh more than you do? yes, and no- ¬.¬
Where does he get the majority of the clothes he wears? nathan ;D lol
Do many people stereotype him? What do they label him as anyway? if he was stereotyped it would probably be under 'skater' because he, well he skates. but he hates being stereotyped into anything. even though he shouts 'greb' out a lot to other people. hmmm, LOL ;D
Is he muscular? If so, do you like him this way? not muscular. but he regularly shoves me :L idk, i wouldnt want someone really really muscly, be kind of overwhelming and scary for me
Do you know if he's ever had braces before? Does he have them now? i dont think he ever has
Describe his hairstyle to me: flickeh. and smoooooooooooooth ;)
What would you say is the best quality in his personality? he makes me laugh, and he can be really sweet (sometimes..:P)
Is he sweet to you most of the time, or is he mean towards you? he can be so sweet, but sometimes it pisses me off when hes mean. but normally he isnt, so its all good{:
Use three adjectives to describe his personality: funny, cute and NERDY(L)
Is he sweet? Caring? Thoughtful? Deep? Honest? Emotional? Mean? depends what moods hes in and who hes with.
Does he ever go out drinking? Is this something you're concerned about? yes, and no. everyone drinks:D
Does he have any nasty habits? What are they? molesting my cat ;)
If you had to choose an emotion to describe him, what would it be? hmm, happy?
Is he more spontaneous or romantic? they can be the same thing a lot of the time. but definitely spontaneous :P
Is he more serious or funny? funny (:
Does he ever really open up emotionally to you? Is he that way to everyone? occasionally. & no.
When he buys you something, is it more of a value or thought concept? ..neither
Does he ever take you to sweet and romantic places? no
Was he ever mean at you at some point? yes
Does he truly care about how you feel and what you have to say? id like to think he cares. but you can never really truly know because you never know what someones really thinking do you?
Does he listen to you often or does he tune you out? like i said, you never know what someone else is truly thinking.
Is he usually more optomist or pessimistic? normally optimistic. but sometimes pessimistic
Does he intentionally try to hurt your feelings? Do you know why he does it? sometimes, but i dont think its intentionally + because he wants to be a badmans. ;D
Does he ever play around with your mind? hes confusing
Does he treat you like you're royalty? somtimes (:
Does he have the ability to kill you emotionally? nope, i wouldnt let him.
When did you two begin dating anyways? 8th january, but for the first time 3rd september
Did he ask you out or were you the one who asked him out? first time he asked me, second time he asked but in a kind of non storybook way, lol.
How long had you two known each other before you started dating? like, 2 years? i didnt know him well or talk to him much though, he knew kathi/kat/rosie more before he knew me
Was it love at first sight, or do you even believe in that stuff? i dont believe in it. it sounds bad but i dont. purely 'falling in love' with someone because of what they look like is a really crappy foundation in my opinion.
How long had you had a crush on him before you started dating? lol, these are all hard to answer because its the second time. erm, first time like 3 weeks? and second time, well ever since the start of them 3 weeks still. but plus about 4 months ;D lol, sounds really confusing.
Did he/you say yes automatically, or what it a 'I'll think about it' thing? it took time, but he asked + i said yes because that time i was ready. and the second time i said yes instantly as well.
When did you two first kiss? erm, i dont remember dates of stuff like that, i forget too easily
Had you all kissed before you actually officially started dating? no
When was your first date and where was it at? official 'date' was double with kathi+will too see fame so at bluewater. but we meet up normally with people more tbh
Do you all ever still go on dates to this place? bluewater is where everyone goes:P
Does he ever hold you hand in public, or do you all avoid this? i like holding hands{:
Are you all into the 'public display of affection' thing? no, i dont think its that nice to get off with people in front of everyone tbh
Does he walk around with his arm around your waist? sometimes
When you all are kissing, does he ever play with your hair? i like it when he plays with my hair, but he normally doesnt. unless hes messing it up, which he enjoys. *sigh* :L
Does he ever intentionally try to embarass you? sometimes he just insults me because thats what people do to me, im 'so easy to insult' but i dont normally get embaressed because im used to it :P
Were either one of you a virgin before you met each other? both id hope.. :P
Are you both virgins now, or have you all had sex before? virggggggins, ;D
Is this relationship more based on love or lust? love, now. id hope.
Is there anything about him that you absolutely cannot stand? his casual loud swearing in crowded places. normally the ones with little children present. i dislike that
Do you feel closer to him than anyone else you associate with? romantically i do obvs, but not emotionally. hes not the one id go to with my problems
Tell me exactly in detail how he makes you feel: confused, hopeful, and happy.
Could you ever see yourself living with him? i dont look far into the future tbh, it scares me too much, i think living with any one of my friends would be pretty entertaining, him included:P
Do you two even live in the same town/go to the same school? 15 minuteish drive, same school
Would you say you're truly in love with this boy? im 14, i doubt i know what love is yet. but what i know of love so far, is good. :D
When did you start feeling this way about him, if you have before? recently.
Have you ever kissed him underwater, in a tree or below the stars? no
Have you two ever sat and watched a sunset or sunrise together? never officially watched it, seen it though
Do you two share a lot of the same interests? Examples, please? some. pokemon ;D and we have anough in common to get by, but enough differences to make it interesting {: if you were exactly the same it would be boring.
How often would you say he makes you cry, if he does at all in any way? not often. recently i've cried though. but i had reason :P im not really a crying person tbh
Has he ever written you a sweet note that made you cry happy tears? ive had notes of random drawings, they didnt make me cry though :L
Do you seriously think this relationship could last forever? im too young for forever.
Is this really more than puppy love? whats puppy love exactly, i thought it was teenage love?
How often does he call you and how often do you call him? he never calls me because he never has credit, when unless hes on his homephone. sometimes i phone him, normally when we're out and i need to though
Has he ever let you wear any of his clothes before? Which items? hoodies, hats, earmuffs, shoes, coats, i go on:P
If you go to school with him, do you two have any classes together? same school, different years+different houses, so none.
Has he ever given you a hickey? er, no..
Have you ever given him one before? No.
Have you two ever been on a date to an amusement park? non, if love to though :P
When you watch movies together, does he hold you close in his arms? i havent watched that many movies with him, more tv. and then yes [: but i like being held close with or without movies its nice
Describe how he smells: Is it good or bad? yummeh ;D and when he sleeps over of about a ton of my deodorant, he has a thing with knocking them all off the shelf then using them all. :L
When your sad, broken down and crying, what does he do to comfort you? hes not normally there
Have you two ever shared food or a drink with one another? i steal his food normally. :P
Does he make you feel like you have butterflies in your stomach? a lot less than he used to, the butterfly feeling fades after a while :( but still somtimes is there :D
Would you say your love is completely cliche' or simple? Simple.
Has anyone ever accused you of being obsessed with him? no. im not obsessive, lol
Do you two ever go to the movies? Do you just make out the whole time? yes, no. i like watching the films lol
Does he actually have the ability to make you laugh? all the time
What would you say if your last dying words were to him? er, in the movies they always say 'i love you' in a really strained voice. id like to do that, im cool (H)
Do you consider him a part of you? everyone you nkow is a part of ykn
How do his kisses make you feel? disgusted¬¬ how do you think?
Does he ever take up for you and defend you? hes stuck up for me before
Would you say he's overbearing when it comes to protecting you? nope. i wouldnt want that anyway.
What is the sweetest thing he's ever done towards you? its the little things really isnt it
Do you all have a song that symbolizes your relationship? taylor swift always has something that sums up how im feeling.
Do you ever keep the notes he writes and things he makes you? i keep everything and put it in my book/scrapbook/wall. im a hoarder, lol.
When was the last time you two hung out? bluewater in the crimbo holidays. bad day.
When is the next time you two will hang out? er, next weekend?
Does he normally explain to you how much you mean to him? no..
Do people think your relationship is cute or immature and unnecessary? immature. i like being immature, its more fun :D
Does he have any crazy ex's who are obsessed with him? he has ex's, some i know and they are pretty crazy in a fun way ;D but not obsessed with him
Do you have any crazy ex's who are still obsessed with you? why would they be obsessed with me, lol
Have you two ever broken up before? How many times, to be exact? yes, once.
Have you two ever had a pregnancy scare? no..he told me i was pregnant once. over xbox, as you do ;)
Do you two live with each other? non
Do you two share most of the same friends/aquaintences? yeah, hes friends with most of my friends, and i know some of his unit friendlings.
Are you jealous of any girls in his life and is he jealous of any guys? im not jealous because they're in his life. but i get jealous when people are prettier than me, god damn those godblessed bitches. ;D erm, if he got jealous of all the guys i talk to he wouldnt be able to keep up, im friends with a lot of guys, lol.
Has he ever said anything to you that just, made your heart melt? yes :D like i said, he can be enormously sweet sometimes <3
Does he like the people you hang out with? yea, they're his chums. :L
Do you like the people he hangs out with? i know a few. and they're okay. a few are kind of arseholes first impression. but then they turn out okay.
Has he ever spent the night at your house? yeah, he always seems to end up staying on the spur of the moment, lol
Have you ever spend the night at his house? no
What is something you love most about him? his clothes, i like stealing them {: + the hugs, gotta love hugs
Could you see yourself one day marrying him? eurgh, marraige. eurgh kids. eurgh general adult life. LET ME BE YOUNG ! :'(
Saturday, 9 January 2010
stupid dryskin, whats up with the snowing?
life is good good good.
everything sorted itself out, but in a good way this time. i must have got some good karma from somewhere because im pretty happy. confused and worried still, but happy.
i was looking at some myspace photos earlier today, dear god we look young in some of the photos, woaaaa. and im getting into twitter, LOL. twitter.com/noeynose - follow me ;D
the snow is annoying me now. i havent been outside in 3 days now and i feel like such a lameass. so it got us off school, am grateful for that but now its keeping me stuck inside like my room is some sort of jail :'( hopefully im seeing avatar tomorrow, but i have a really bad feeling the snow is gonna poo that up, goddammit.
i got this moisturizer for christmas. at first it was really good, good for, lets call them 'blemishes'. but its really badly dried my skin out and it looks all yucky. so for having no 'blemishes' ive got cracky skin. which hurts. if i find a moisturizer im happy with in my life i will die happy. they smell so good + feel nice, then the after effects are never nearly as perfect. goddammit. ive had to use like a load of e45 to moisturize my skin to happiness again, and it looks ugly. and im going out tomorrow. f*** it tbh.
i've been scrapbooking a lot, and im liking how thats come out. at first it was just gonna be the photos but then i added lyrics and little cutouts and stuff.
OH THIS DRY SKIN, :'( so not nice.
im glad i kept my 'book' because it entertains me to write a load of bollocks into it. idk, it just does.
fairwell from me, my laptop and my giant collage of a room.
(A)
everything sorted itself out, but in a good way this time. i must have got some good karma from somewhere because im pretty happy. confused and worried still, but happy.
i was looking at some myspace photos earlier today, dear god we look young in some of the photos, woaaaa. and im getting into twitter, LOL. twitter.com/noeynose - follow me ;D
the snow is annoying me now. i havent been outside in 3 days now and i feel like such a lameass. so it got us off school, am grateful for that but now its keeping me stuck inside like my room is some sort of jail :'( hopefully im seeing avatar tomorrow, but i have a really bad feeling the snow is gonna poo that up, goddammit.
i got this moisturizer for christmas. at first it was really good, good for, lets call them 'blemishes'. but its really badly dried my skin out and it looks all yucky. so for having no 'blemishes' ive got cracky skin. which hurts. if i find a moisturizer im happy with in my life i will die happy. they smell so good + feel nice, then the after effects are never nearly as perfect. goddammit. ive had to use like a load of e45 to moisturize my skin to happiness again, and it looks ugly. and im going out tomorrow. f*** it tbh.
i've been scrapbooking a lot, and im liking how thats come out. at first it was just gonna be the photos but then i added lyrics and little cutouts and stuff.
OH THIS DRY SKIN, :'( so not nice.
im glad i kept my 'book' because it entertains me to write a load of bollocks into it. idk, it just does.
fairwell from me, my laptop and my giant collage of a room.
(A)
Wednesday, 6 January 2010
confused
so my dad just came into the room with hot wine. its actually quite nice, sweet. and warm. life is good {:
the snow failed me miserably, however school wasnt too bad today because it was kind of easy, except michael throwing a snowball at me, arse. hopefully it snows tons tonight, cos then no school tomorrow, and i can wear my new wellies. yeaaa (L)
i am left thoroughly confused. as always. and please no jokes about me being stupid, im confused but happy. i have been sticking the photos everywhere, in my new photoalbum/scrapbook, my actual photoalbum is filled up goddammit. and ofc my wall :') my room is turning into a giant scrapbook, i cant decide whether i like it or not. bit by bit im running out of wall space. and when i do, i will die :L
today i watched the top 20 tv shows of the noughties, am glad top gear came first, amazing show <3 and i agreed with a lot of the other ones in there tbh, good shows. {:
"She's got you thinking this is how you’re supposed to be. It's not. We're young. We’re supposed to drink too much. We're supposed to have bad attitudes and shag each other's brains out. We were designed to party. We owe it to ourselves to party hard. We owe it to each other. This is it. This is our time. So a few of us will overdose, or go mental. Charles Darwin said you can't make an omelette without breaking a few eggs. That's what it's about - breaking eggs - by eggs, I mean, getting twatted on a cocktail of class As.
If you could see yourselves... We had it all. We have fucked up bigger and better than any generation that came before us. We were so beautiful... We're screw-ups. I plan on staying a screw-up until my late twenties, or maybe even my early thirties. And I will shag my own mum before I let her.... or anyone else take that away from me!"
i love nathan.
the snow failed me miserably, however school wasnt too bad today because it was kind of easy, except michael throwing a snowball at me, arse. hopefully it snows tons tonight, cos then no school tomorrow, and i can wear my new wellies. yeaaa (L)
i am left thoroughly confused. as always. and please no jokes about me being stupid, im confused but happy. i have been sticking the photos everywhere, in my new photoalbum/scrapbook, my actual photoalbum is filled up goddammit. and ofc my wall :') my room is turning into a giant scrapbook, i cant decide whether i like it or not. bit by bit im running out of wall space. and when i do, i will die :L
today i watched the top 20 tv shows of the noughties, am glad top gear came first, amazing show <3 and i agreed with a lot of the other ones in there tbh, good shows. {:
"She's got you thinking this is how you’re supposed to be. It's not. We're young. We’re supposed to drink too much. We're supposed to have bad attitudes and shag each other's brains out. We were designed to party. We owe it to ourselves to party hard. We owe it to each other. This is it. This is our time. So a few of us will overdose, or go mental. Charles Darwin said you can't make an omelette without breaking a few eggs. That's what it's about - breaking eggs - by eggs, I mean, getting twatted on a cocktail of class As.
If you could see yourselves... We had it all. We have fucked up bigger and better than any generation that came before us. We were so beautiful... We're screw-ups. I plan on staying a screw-up until my late twenties, or maybe even my early thirties. And I will shag my own mum before I let her.... or anyone else take that away from me!"
i love nathan.
Saturday, 2 January 2010
woody says shit?!
omnomnomnomnom
today i woke up at 11 and didnt get out of bed until half 1 because i was laying there thinking about everything.
goddammit.
i never bothered to even get out of my pjs, spent some on the computer.
eurgh. jordan collier is very sick.
(15:01) Jordon:
So asd I was sayin earlier
U want someone who cares
who listens
wanan give us ago?
(15:02) englishcw,still.: you're actually asking me this now?!
i mean, who does that?! FUCKING HELL. seriously, i would NEVER go anywhere near you but you just made the whole thing worse with your stupid timing. not only are you insulting someone im missing as if they're worthless, and he's not, but you're acting like your mr perfect and just because your spending a bit of time listening im going to jump right in with you! really, no. well done you idiot, great timing. dick.
i watched toy story today, i swear woody said shit? like when him and buzz are in sids house, and sid is about to come in. he just goes 'shit', i think he did anyway. daymn! lol.
i have pizza for dinner tonight cos its saturday (really doesnt feel like a saturday..) and i dont even feel like that. eurgh. and its weird because all ive eaten today is a bit of cake and a glass of milk? and im not even hungry, |: weeeeeird.
i watched some gavin and stacey today, i love it, nessa/smithy<3 and i painted my nails, a metallic red. i like it :') im glad stacey is pregnant, eurgh i cant wait for the next series :D (A)
ima go. byeeeeeee {:
today i woke up at 11 and didnt get out of bed until half 1 because i was laying there thinking about everything.
goddammit.
i never bothered to even get out of my pjs, spent some on the computer.
eurgh. jordan collier is very sick.
(15:01) Jordon:
So asd I was sayin earlier
U want someone who cares
who listens
wanan give us ago?
(15:02) englishcw,still.: you're actually asking me this now?!
i mean, who does that?! FUCKING HELL. seriously, i would NEVER go anywhere near you but you just made the whole thing worse with your stupid timing. not only are you insulting someone im missing as if they're worthless, and he's not, but you're acting like your mr perfect and just because your spending a bit of time listening im going to jump right in with you! really, no. well done you idiot, great timing. dick.
i watched toy story today, i swear woody said shit? like when him and buzz are in sids house, and sid is about to come in. he just goes 'shit', i think he did anyway. daymn! lol.
i have pizza for dinner tonight cos its saturday (really doesnt feel like a saturday..) and i dont even feel like that. eurgh. and its weird because all ive eaten today is a bit of cake and a glass of milk? and im not even hungry, |: weeeeeird.
i watched some gavin and stacey today, i love it, nessa/smithy<3 and i painted my nails, a metallic red. i like it :') im glad stacey is pregnant, eurgh i cant wait for the next series :D (A)
ima go. byeeeeeee {:
Friday, 1 January 2010
/:
oh shit.
at least 2010 now has a completely clean slate.
at first i couldn't picture myself with you.
and now i can't picture myself without you.
funny how stuff changes.
happy new years to me eh.
at least 2010 now has a completely clean slate.
at first i couldn't picture myself with you.
and now i can't picture myself without you.
funny how stuff changes.
happy new years to me eh.
HAPPY NEW YEAR BITCHES
Romeo and Juliet is a widely known play about two ‘star cross’d lovers’ who fall passionately in love, then take their own lives. The plot follows two main characters, Romeo and Juliet, who are from two different families. The two families, the Capulets and Montagues share an ancient grudge between them, but this does not stop them falling for each other at first sight, and the play ends with them both tragically taking their lives as each think the other is dead. The play is drawn heavily upon fate, through the deaths, loves and coincidental meetings dotted throughout the play.
The play begins with a prologue detailing the basic plotline of the play. There are lots of clues and hints at the storyline, setting the scene for the audience. ‘Two households, both alike in dignity’ immediately lets the audience know the play is based around two families of the same wealth and social status. ‘In fair Verona, where we lay our scene’, they know where it is set, and being it Verona this gives a small outlook to the storyline. Verona is a very romantic city, with hot weather and [word here]. ‘From ancient grudge break to new mutiny’, so between these families there is a grudge going way back, but recently something has changed this, the eternal grudge has been disrupted. ‘A pair of star-cross’d lovers take their life;’ is probably the key line in the prologue. It gives the whole key to the play, two people who met coincidentally, tragically taking their lives as they can not bare to live in a world without the other. So the audience have the setting of the play, the conflict between the two families and the tragedy. They are hopefully now engrossed into the play.
..and thats my essay.
daymn, i keep getting stuck and then thinking eventually i'l be bothered to do it. but there's two days left of the holidays, and now im panicking. so i'm doing it, struggling along..
last night was bloody amazing <3
i was a bit mopy for the first part for reasons im not saying on here. but i got cheered up as soon as i walked into kat's house, i love it so much. her parents were just like 'HAPPY NEW YEAR DUDES!' and then we were watching harry potter and the philospopher stone and talking along to it ! :L aah, good stuff (A) then i probably got really annoying to them constantly wanting to go on the computer because stuff happened and i was like :'( so sorry if that got annoying for you guys. then we were going on the wii, and i was 34 in my fitness age ;D god im amazing <3 lol, yes.
but it got to like 11.55, and we were like shiiiiiit, ran downstairs and turned on the countdown and were like madly running around everywhere, stupidly hyped up. and i sort of sorted something out, but idk whats going to happen there, but whatever will be will be i guess :) good ol' beatles.
then we watched carrie and got so terrifed that if we got off the bed she'd grab us, lol! aww, so good {: + inbetweeners as well ,
oh, such good quotes from that :')
FRIEND! FRIEND! FOOTBALL FRIEND! (Y)
and not actualyl sleeping until about half 5 because we were staying up talking :D
aww, i love you guys {:
HAPPY NEW YEAR BITHCES! goodbye noughties (N)
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