half termage!

it pleases me there are people like you in the world, it makes it a better place.
:D

today i had two lunches:P i had a plate of pasta which i bought myself then dan didnt eat half of his pizza+chips so i ate that then chris gave me a kitkat. i had such a food baby by then end:P but i had double p.e after so hopefully a little burned off, 'cept i didnt do a lot. well i ran about 200m. i dont like running much :D but me and maddie had a little chat whilst we were waiting for the organisey relay shit, it was good to get all that out.

you did know, im not stupid. but maybe you werent lying? you dont strike me as the dishonest type.. you're a nice'n. however it's not really your fault. i dont mind anyway, lets not drag up the past more than is neccessary here.

hello highly thinker i did not know you thought highly of me. people surprise me all the time nowadays.

my holiday plans for half term :D:D:D
friday/tonight : HUT! matts birthday, better get drawing.. wish it didnt fail.
saturday : expo, need a wig! aaaah
sunday : karnn's dwelling
monday : see my nan xD
tuesday : OWAINS, me hopes. i miss you.
wednesday : fail piss up? possibility i'l go.
thursday : emilys? possibly.
friday : empty!
saturday : keirans party then stay at emily's
sunday : stumble home. :P
monday : SLEEPAGE.

i said to maddie she could come over at some point during half term so i may have her over friday. she wanted to meet fred, apaz glen calls him fat a lot. he is going to get some beatings. *contemplates* :L

my fashionunion order get messed up. not by them but the delivery, its possible the people at the factory thingamy have tampered with it and stolen my clothes D: we got some ugly shoes and plain tops. joy. *sad face*
and i was planning on wearing them this half term.

i think im done.
no-one blogs anymore, yet they want people to blog so they can read? unfairyness :P it is strange, i was looking earlier and in jan+feb i was blogging 20+ times a month, now im doing barely 10. maybe thats a good thing? my blogs sometimes backfire:P oh well.
LATERS!

anyone listening?

well that brought my mood right down/:

although i deserve it.

it felt best?

i miss stuff.

please let it be ok.

somes

100 Truths! After you've filled this out, tag people and have them do the same.

1. Last beverage? tango orange
2. Last phone call? will, he rang me to find where we were xD
3. Last text message? tom, telling me his new number
4. Last song you listened to? only one final - owain lewis. one of his first song apaz:D
5. Last time you cried? a while ago.

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice? indeed.
7. Been cheated on? no
8. Kissed someone & regretted it? oh god, yes. goddamn alcohol :L
9. Lost someone special? yes
10. Been depressed? yes
11. Been drunk? yes ;L


LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. teal
13. green
14. orange

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Made new friends? yes, all the time xD
16. Fallen out of love? yes, *proud*
17. Laughed until you cried? regularly :L
18. Met someone who changed you? i have.
19. Found out who your true friends were? i knew already
20. Found out someone was talking about you? yes
21. Kissed anyone on your tagged list? er..yes 8)
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life? 331, and before you ask, yes of course i know ash ketchum.
23. How many kids do you want to have? none/2
24. Do you have any pets? my beloved fred<3
25. Do you want to change your name? non
26. What did you do for your last birthday? camer, got drunk in a terrible way and couldnt walk
27. What time did you wake up today? 7am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night? sleepin'
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for? summer!
30. Last time you saw your father? this morn
31. What is 1 thing you wish you could change about your self? my nose
32. What are you listening to right now? lions and tigers - asobi seksu
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? tom clark amongst some others
34. What's getting on your nerves right now? my tiredness
36. Whats your real name? zoe tamsin king
38. Zodiac sign? taurus
39. Male or female? female
41. Middle School? new ash green primary
42. High school? me o fam
43. Hair colour? dark blonde
44. Long or short? long.
45. Height? 5"5ish
46. Have a crush on someone? ish
47. What do you like about yourself? er, my lips
48. Piercings? ears
49. Tattoos? id like some xD
50. Righty or lefty? right


FIRSTS :
51. First surgery? never
52. First piercing? ears
53. First tattoo? none YET
54. First best friend? rosie ;D
55. First sport you joined? netball
56. First pet? FRED!
57. First vacation remembered? wales
58. First concert? dunno
59. First crush? no idea:L

RIGHT NOW:
61. Eating? not
62. Drinking? not
63. I'm about to? sniffle
64. Listening to? hometown glory (high contrast remix) - adele
65. Waiting for? bedtime

YOUR FUTURE :
66. Want kids? no
67. Want to get married? someday
68. Careers in mind? interior designer, magazine editor, not sure yet

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
69. Lips or eyes? eyes
70. Hugs or kisses? hugs
71. Shorter or taller? taller
72. Older or Younger? older
73. Romantic or spontaneous? romantic
74. Nice stomach or nice arms? stomach
75. Tattoos or piercings? either, just not drastically
76. Sensitive or loud? inbetween
77. Hook-up or relationship? depends on my mood
78. Trouble maker or hesitant? trouble maker

HAVE YOU EVER :
79. Kissed a stranger? kinda
80. Drank hard liquor? yeah
81. Lost glasses/contacts? dont wear them
82. Sex on first date? no
83. Broken someone's heart? possibly
84. Had your own heart broken? yes
85. Been arrested? no lol
86. Turned someone down? yeah and i hate the guilt
87. Cried when someone died? yes
88. Liked a friend that is a girl? yeah, me and my friends are all just lesbians at heart :')


DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself? no
90. Miracles? mo
91. Love at first sight? no
92. Heaven? no
93. Santa Claus? no
94. Kissing on the first date? depends

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
96. Is there one person you want to be with right now? no
97. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? no
98. Do you believe its possible to remain faithful forever? if you're happy
99. What's the one thing you cannot live without? free will
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? no ;D

here is gone

you're right. somehow it is about me. how do i do this? spin webs of hurting people i never wanted to hurt?

how did this happen? im digging deep.

now i have to decide.
which will involve panic. and pain.

yay.

effing prom.

awww fuck.
fuckity fuck fuck fuck.

i need people online. badly?
i should have gone to bed then this wouldnt have happened.

person #1; im not going with you, you sort of repulse me. WHY ARE YOU ASKING ME ANYWAY? oh god. you are a rapist.
person #2; if you are being serious about that i am truly going to hate myself. gaaaaaaaawd. i dont want to go at all! i will look like a fish out of water. and i wont know hardly anyone that i can talk to easily and feel not so selfconscious.
and wearing dresses makes me feel like a blob.
it's not my year, supposed to be year 11!
i would look like a fish out of water, not to mention a bit of an idiot. eurgh. how did this happen? i need to sleep on this.
god i feel like bella, maybe i should travel somewhere a long way away to go shopping. or break my leg. YES!
then i wont be able to go.
but this solution is unpractical. euuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuurgh.

81 out of 132

Key -
(X) = Yes (-)= maybe/sort of/ kinda (0) = No

Level 1
(-) Smoked A Cigarette
(0) Smoked A Cigar
(0) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
(X) Drank Alcohol

SO FAR: 1.5

Level 2
(X) Are / Been In Love
(X) Been Dumped
(X) Shoplifted
(X) Been Fired
(0) Been In A Fist Fight

SO FAR: 4.5

Level 4
(X) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(0) Skipped School
(0) Slept With A Co-worker
(X) Seen Someone / Something Die

SO FAR: 6.5

Level 5
(X) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Facebook Friends
(0) Been To Paris
(0) Been To Spain
(0) Been On A Plane
(0) Thrown Up From Drinking

SO FAR: 7.5

Level 6
(0) Eaten Sushi
(0) Been Snowboarding
(X) Met Someone BECAUSE Of Facebook (internet)
(x) Been in a Mosh Pit

SO FAR: 9.5

Level 7
(0) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(X) Taken Pain Killers
(X) Love/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(X) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(X) Made A Snow Angel

SO FAR: 13.5

Level 8
(X) Had A Tea Party
(X) Flown A Kite
(X) Built A Sand Castle
(X) Gone mudding (offroading)
(X) Played Dress Up

SO FAR: 18.5

Level 9
(X) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(X) Gone Sledging
(X) Cheated While Playing A Game
(X) Been Lonely
(X) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

SO FAR: 23.5

Level 10
(X) Watched The Sun Set
(0) Felt An Earthquake
(0) Killed A Snake

SO FAR: 24.5

Level 11
(X) Been Tickled
(X) Been Robbed / Vandalized
(0) Been cheated on
(X) Been Misunderstood

SO FAR: 27.5

Level 12
(X) Won A Contest
(0) Been Suspended From School
(X) Had Detention
(0) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident

SO FAR: 29.5

Level 13
(0) Had / Have/need Braces
(X) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(0) Danced in the moonlight

SO FAR: 30.5

Level 14
(X) Hated The Way You Look
(-) Witnessed A Crime
(0) Pole Danced
(X) Questioned Your Heart
(0)Been obsessed with post-it-notes

SO FAR: 33

Level 15
(X) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(X) Been Lost
(0) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(X) Swam In The Ocean
(X) Felt Like You Were Dying

SO FAR: 37

Level 16
(X) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(X) Played Cops And Robbers
(X) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(X) Sang Karaoke
(X) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

SO FAR: 42

Level 17
(X) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(X) Made Prank Phone Calls
(X) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
(0) Kissed In The Rain

SO FAR: 45

Level 18
(X) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(X) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(X) Blown Bubbles
(X) Made A Bonfire On The Beach or anywhere

SO FAR: 49

Level 19
(0) Crashed A Party
(0) Have Travelled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(X) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(X) Had A Wish Come True
(0) Been Humped By A Monkey

SO FAR: 51

Level 20
(0) Worn Pearls
(X) Jumped Off A Bridge
(X) Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina"
(0) Swam With Dolphins

SO FAR: 53

Level 22
(X) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
(0) Kissed A Fish
(X) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(X) Sat On A Roof Top

SO FAR: 56

Level 23
(X) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
(X) Done / ATTEMPTED A One-Handed Cartwheel
(0) Talked On The Phone For More Than 4 Hours
(0) Recently stayed Up for a while talking to someone you care about

SO FAR: 58

Level 24
(X) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(X) Climbed A Tree
(X) Had/Been In A Tree House
(X) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone--

SO FAR: 62

Level 25
(X) Believed In Ghosts
(0) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
(0) Gone Streaking-
(0) Visited Jail

SO FAR: 63

Level 26
(0) Played Chicken
(0) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(X) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
(0) Broken A Bone
(X) Been Easily Amused

SO FAR: 65

Level 27
(0) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
(0) Made A Porn Video
(0) Caught A Butterfly..
(X) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(X) Cried So Hard You Laughed

SO FAR: 67

Level 28
(X) Mooned/Flashed Someone
(X) Had Someone Moon/Flash You LOL
(X) Cheated On A Test
(X) Forgotten Someone's Name
(X) French Braided Someones Hair
(0) Gone Skinny Dipping
(0) Been Kicked Out Of Your House
(X) Tried to hurt yourself

SO FAR: 73

Level 29
(X) Rode A Roller Coaster
(X) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
(0) Had A Cavity
(X) Black-Mailed Someone
(X) Been Black Mailed

SO FAR: 77

Level 31
(X) Been Used
(X) Fell Going Up The Stairs
(0) Licked A Cat
(X) Bitten Someone
(X) Licked Someone

SO FAR: 81

Level 32
(0) Been shot at/or at gunpoint
(0) Had sex in the rain
(0) Flattened someones tires
(0) Rode your bike/Driven your car until the fuel light came on
(0) Got five pounds or less worth of fuel

TOTAL: 81

Re-post this with the title I've done 81 Out of a 132 Stupid Things

she wants to be me.

IF SOMEONE ASKS 'ARE YOU OKAY?' YOU SAY:
FACK

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
broken strings

WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
better man

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
broccolli

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
boys boys boys
oh yay.

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO
i want to hold your hand

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
bonkers

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
sad story

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
a new beginning

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT YOUR FIRST KISS?
take a bow.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
bad influence
er yeah, SHE'S the bad influence ;) ;) ;)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
dirty little secret

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
22
lol

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
the (after)life of the party

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
flourescent adolescent

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
stay with me

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
just looking

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
changes

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
i get all the girls
;)

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
dance lessons

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
a hard day's night

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
she wants to be me

bad people get rocks

i like rocks. they keep me down.

oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck.
this is bad.
i need to lock in a room and stop socialising.
OH GOD THATS BAD.

maybe the rain was Karma, biting my arse for being a drunk slut. i had fun though so im regretting NOTHING.

fuck it all. im listening to owain, im young and should just have fun. being serious isnt making me happy, so im going to live. make it fun.

ive got a lot pinned on tomorrow. i hope karma and god are behind me.

this will sort out.