2010 wants + the noughties are over :[

:')

so anyway, its the 23rd of december and i got up at 1 today. i was amazingly tired, i would have stayed in bed longer but my sister was playing her radio really loudly and it woke me up ¬.¬

so, i know its a tad early and everything, but im bored. so i've decided to get my things i wanted to do this year list off myspace (;]) and see how i've done {:
so here goes.

sleep under the stars
boy shopping with 2 different people
eat something unusual
roll down a big hill
not eat ANY chocolate (inc. chocolate flavored things) for a fortnight
finish making that bag
finish that relentless can drawing
camp out over summer
BEACH<3
get GREEN glue this time (i stole some off my sister, i still 'got' it so it still counts. {:)
new hard drive
see a film in 3D
use some of that bath stuff i've had for f**king ages
complete desperate housewives game
watch the whole of series 2 skins (OMG CHRIS DIES:'( im well gonna miss that cast)
new pair of jeans
touch phone ?
do/make something i'm proud of
get into a HAPPY relationship
SAVE!!!!
customize an item of clothing
get the coloured tights i want
watch a load more horrorsssss
get sims 3 (:
new green day album!
meet someone new

so im not sure that was my list for 2009, but it was things to do by christmas. so its good enough ;D

so heres my list for 2010.
[there are some from the list above if i didnt do it last year]

get some boots
keep my 'book' up for at least 4 months, if not the whole year
get a photo album
& get a load of photos developed
read all the house of night books
update my room walls
fill up my sketchpad
see a 3d film (TOY STORY PLEASETH!)
have a relationship longer that 6 months
change my hair again
get rechargeable batteries
see owain more, it sucks now he works saturdays :\
improve photography
boy shopping, and find many numero onche's ;D
improve art + get a good grade (A)
make jack come shopping with me
get a keyboard
go ice skating
say less stupid stuff
new laptop, [hoping]
be in something official at walktall (pantomime/filming etc)
improve my acting/lying skilllllllz
achieve my end of year 10 targets
have 1000 songs
get a job
read the jeremy clarkson book (A)
have an ice age marathon
go to rosies and have a home alone marathong :P
more clothes? :P
hook rosie and katarina up! ;)
stay up to date with coursework
make dann healthier
+ meet up with the human dann more as its been a while
lose a bitta weight
camp out over summer
go to broadstairs in the summer again :')
get a boots card

will probably add more when i think {:

so anyway, the noughties are now over :( it sort of feels like this is now the end of my childhood, i dont like it.

x

monday tuesday

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaye

i had a good monday/tuesday.

monday involved bluewater {: which was good, but there was NOWHERE to sit down at all, which meant we got bored quite quickly. but i got presents, which was good [: i am currently reading the jeremy clarkson book which i laaaav <3 i love him.
then we went to the bus stop with rosie , katherine , AND glen. because somehow whilst i was daydreaming they'd decided they were sleeping round mine, lol. which turned out to be really fun (A)
although sleeping wasn't very comfortable. attempted to sleep all 4 people in one bed. which worked, but 2 people were always comfortable and two always not. so we went downstairs and it was freezing and uncomfortable. i slept about an hour, and man have i got a sexy morning face ;)

anyways, after i got them freaks out of my house, i did a load of tidying (they made a lot of mess ¬.¬) then did a bit of drawing in my NEW sketchbook (;D) and found my PIKACHU CANDY WAS PRETTY MUCH ALL GONE. pigspigspigs. so i went onto youtube + discovered glen had stayed signed in, so made him a video telling him he is a pig. :D because i am an absolutely lovely person.

and he got me a book, so i'm going to work on that. i think i will be good at it as i get a lot of word vomit and a collect on a lot of crap i can stick in {:

and that was my last two days [: x

stupid, cuss, drowzee

sup.
im going to go straight into it, no intro.

im sick of being stupid and fat. you all think your real original taking the piss, but believe me - i've heard all your shit before. i've heard the blonde jokes and i like them. today i got;
'im listening'
'listening to what, the air flowing between your ears?'.
..aha

yupp, you think you're so damn original, believe me i've had 'your dumb' told to me in every single way. and no matter how hard i try i cant throw off the rep. in primary i was one of the smartest + now look at me. one of the dumbest. everythings gone downhill. you watch me get annoyed and tell me 'you're academically smart but just got no common sense'. right okay. so i'm in top set for everything, + you think i'm 'academically smart' yet you still think im stupid. actually what have i got to do? i don't think before i speak because im too lazy (don't even go to the lazy cuss' here) and if i did i'd get nowhere in life cos i'd never talk. i get it, im not the smartest brick in the wall. but do you really have to throw it in my face every moment? the fat things not so bad tbh, cos i can overcome that mentally because i can pretend you don't mean it in my head, then start a brand new diet and shiz.

and even when i get myself into a good mood where im happy and singing etc. you people know exactly how to fuck it out. i mean, i get into a good mood, its all good. and you immediately take it away so im pissed off, angry at you, and angry at life. and theres nothing i can do about it. you just do it, i dont know whether it's deliberate or you don't actually mean to, but i guess i got to live with it. just because you do something doesn't mean i should, and if i don't then what i do is wrong. just because i don't want to give you things you don't deserve when i know you'll NEVER return the favour doesn't make me selfish - just sick of you. just because i play sports and want to win doesn't mean im aggressive - just because i tackle and intercept doesn't mean im 'too competitive' ITS THE POINT OF THE BLOODY GAME, to get the ball! watch sport, THEY TRY AND GET THE BALL. it's how it works. just because you don't doesnt mean im too aggressive. and i will stare into space and blank you all i want thankyou very much.

this blogs kind of delayed, its not as angry because i was pissed off when i got him. well not pissed off, just in a contemplatey mood. and then i got home, had some cheese on toast, watched an old 8 out of 10 cats...then fell asleep. i woke up at 8 o clock really drowsy, and two hours later here i am xD

drowzee, oh how that brings back memories.

anyways, the snow has stopped which im thoroughly dissappointed about, but form party tomorrow and i have a pizza in the over, and bit of gavin and stacey / true blood in 5, so its all good [:

i feel i've forgotten something i was gonna write about, so when it comes to me i'l blog :P

stupid people and good school days

i am confused
YES I KNOW, i don't need you're 'well there's a surprise' 'that doesnt happen often!' comments please.

basically, why do people hate people for no reason? i mean, yes we all judge and shizzle, but why feel a need to actually take the time purely to produce bad feelings that will just lower your mood and focus them on someone who deserves nothing, none of it. you'll just put yourself in a bad mood dear, and then it will probably make you worse off because of it. because if someone doesnt like me/you, tbh get over it. grow to like people, and if they've done NOTHING to you in the first place, why even bother?

anyway, today was actually rather good. triple art, finished my after final peice or whatever im supposed to call it. which was basically where i had to take something i liked from my final peice and experiment with it. i know, complicated but i understand what im on about :') i had to experiment with lace (god that sounds bad..) and it came out all gothicy, so i drew this scary frieky woman covering her face, and shes got some waaaaaay freaky hands :L
so now i've done that we're on popart, so i did a roy lichenstein, of a fist pointing. quite easy, but thats why i chose it xD im not good with detail :\ and now it's the holidays + i took my art book home, so im free to do some paintings in it, woo ! {:
and media was eaaaaasy, me and rosie just making our trailer, came out well ;D and the french film in french, which i actually understood. (it had subtitles which i was reading, but shhhhh). strangely, it was an okay film xD
double science tomorrow, and they never let us off work :| but english we're watching romeo and juliet, well we were. they are kind of weird, thinking that touching hands is like kissing. and then shes married at like 14 :| and her boobs were SPILLING out of her dress and one point, not good to watch.
but sad at the end :\ i mean, it just emphasizes that everything in life is down to so little. two [fictional, i know] people died, where if romeo had arrived 5 MINUTES later they'd both have lived. i've had buses more than five minutes late, imagine what that could have caused for the other people on the buses! mymy, so much based on so little..

and p.e tomorrow, which is not good :\ make us go outside i bet, even though its like -3. BUT, if it snows enough maybe i wont even have to get out of bed! hopehopehope.
then friday, last 2 periods are form party, and ASSEMBLY. pointless assembly. i mean, i already know what they're gonna say.
while you're opening your presents, think of the children in africa
which is sad i know, but its every year ¬_¬ and it really puts a downer on a happy atmosphere.
BUT THEN ITS THE HOLIDAYS.
saturday is yog, possibly bluewater before? monday im getting my haircut, if im in the mood get my full fringe back ;D then bluewater, giving out presents. i dont know whther i'l want to open them there and then, or wait til christmas. such a hard choice! :(

wow, that was a long and pointless blog :L