because little chihauhau's are ridiculously cute

hmm. havent blogged in a while.

i love walktall. i love everyone there. (L) :D:D:D:D

BUT
some people need to open their minds. and also some people need to not assume i like them. youre not very good at reading body signals are you? hmm. grem.
also they way im practically falling asleep in science and maths, then when i should be wanting to sleep at times like now, not tired? hohum.
my teeth feel lucky.

i didnt get indian food tonight. damn you mother, making dad change his mind. but now he owes me one cos he said 'next week'. and 'we'll see' which means she'll have forgotten about it by then so its okay (H) but i wont. i will remind him, muahaha ;D

now im just waiting i guess. for something, someone, to come along. i dont know who yet, but im sure they will. someday. if i live til im old (:|) i've got 80 odd years for that. so screw it, im living life. and i promised, id cram in as much shit as possible. i may not owe that promise, but im keeping it anyway.

anywhoo, im off to clean my teeth, pack my shiz for tomorrow (ART:D:D:D) check my deviant, and then finish watching desperate housewives series 2 episode 1. MY GOD. its all weird. and messed up. :'( damnit. SORT YOURSELVES OUT. secrets are bad guys, sort it {:

today i went to morrisons

so i got up early this morn, and looked rather like a zombie. i went to bed last night about one, even though i didnt watch sport relief and now everyones saying stuff about it and im like I DIDNT WATCH IT :'(:'(:'( however, im gonna youtube some stuff, like the moyles part, and russell brands part (i like russell brand, mmmmmmmhmm) and james cordens. because i love him, hes hilarious:) SMITHY!<3
anyways, i went to morrisons with my mummy, and got a memory card. also i got some heat protection spray(vo5), the shockwaves hairspray rosie always talks about and some cheap mousse. BUT, to top it all off, i found DARK CHOCOLATE MICADO. yes. the best invention in the world i believe. my god. but anyway, my room is covered in all the crap i bought, (+ sugar, which had a puck poster in this month! mmmhmmmm<3<3<3) and i need to sort all that out me thinks.
i watched skins (dont read if you havent watched it yet, i dont want people angry at me), HOLY CRAP. freddie:'( nonono! eurgh im in mourning for sho'. but i love cooke. he looked fit in this episode, and i hope he killed that creepy physiatrist good n'proper like. I WANT TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENS. if that guy kills cooke then ima complain to skins. no not reallyhaha. but my point still stands. :L their are skins auditions next month, id audition if i was old enough. i know i wouldnt get in anyway cos im not an amazing actor like most of em but it'd be nice to try. damn my birthdate. *sigh*

now i need to watch the glee i missed, forest gump, and two episodes of cleveland show. i love how they puke on the cleveland show :') it makes me laugh. laugh laugh laugh laugh.

next, ANOTHER rpatz poster in my sugar? this is ridiculous. they've now given me three. practically in a row. its ridiculous. there are other celebrities out there? and im kinda sick of taylor lautner now as well. i mean, hes fit. but id like a variety of posters please. not just taylor lautner and robert pattinson.

but i remember dear john is coming out, and nanny mcphee. id like to see them. did anyone else know channing tatum is married to the girl in step up he acted with? i didnt. JEALOUS. he is one hot tomato.

right, i need to stop writing, get onto sorting my crap out, and then playing some sims. im hooked again, ahaha.

OVER AND OUT EARTHLINGS. x

i am the happies bean in the history of beans

today was the best day in a while, i knew it would be as soon as i woke up.

i woke up at 6, properly awake, then kind of drifted in and out for the next hour, then at 7 i was up and out of bed like speedy gonzales. sitting in the canteen with rosie+kat, i was laughing like hysterically, laughter is amazing. happyhappy. monday lessons are easy, and i wasnt tired so another good thing. :D apart from rosie being ill, which was bad obvs. assembly was boring but i drifted off into zoeworld throughout it. :P then art was good, randomly painting my book. + a weight sort of feels off my chest after today, quite a few weights actually, which im happy about. no-one likes weights :P

i want my dad to hurry home! i love my daddio, i think hes buying me a new laptop :D im so happy about that, i can sim again! and he's buying me the camera for my birthday, and the laptop for my birthday now as well, its so lovely. hes all generous :D but this is meaning i cant do expensive stuff for my birthday, which is fair fair. so i may just do camer again? not sure about that.

im in such a good mood. as soon as i woke up i knew today would be good, it did not dissapoint {: happyhappyhappy. im gonna lavish in this, cos another problems gonna come along soon as they always do. but for now its all good, so i will enjoy it while it lasts.

to rosie+kathi, get well soon homies!

had

everything. deserved? possibly. good karma? probably not. happy times. lost. things change. stuff changes. times change. people change. bad karma? maybe. deserved? no. not that much. you? ungrateful. so nice, hiding. pretty skank. slut. but friendly. so likeable. deserving? yes. everything received, yes. dirty treatments. fighting, not good. arguments, not good. resolved? no. questions? too many. not enough aloud. open person, closed person. no-one's perfect. we strive anyway. acceptable? no, you deserve what you get. everything? pain, hurt, goodbye. selfish. wrongdoings, really. seeing wrong, doing wrong, acting wrong. wrong.

you think you know so much. you know a lot but still very little. im not stupid. no matter what everyone thinks. im not. i have a brain. it wont be deserved, no.

desperate housewives; <3 i love angie, her accent is amaaaazing. i love her character, though i do think its kind of a fill in on evie. who was just a great character, love to hate. angie is basically an evie replacement. but i still like her. her hair and her accent, yummyyummyum.

had a nap earlier, woke up about 7. now im not tired, and will probably sit in bed reading for ages. dont knock it, just when im tired tomorrow it will be a regret. but it was worth it, i was rather tired. dinner, yummy. spaghetti and meatballs; goodstuff. english tomorrow, draaaaaag. pe, basketball? i think, its meh. worst, double science, iaa. eurgh, fail at that. got it all wrong in the lesson, yeast smells. sorry, but it does. im not squeamish and can get past it but its not pleasant.

nightnightnightnightnightx

hello

walktall was on tour (N) which made my tuesdays night draaaaaag, cos normally on this night i'd be there having fun :D but nope. ah well, art tomorrow @@ although ive kind of come to a standstill in art, its still always fun. even if ive found myself lost in it. oh well :P

also i think my camera is broken :( damn, my parents wont be happy bunnies. maybe i'l ask for one for my birthday, which is less than two months now ;D woo{:im really back into incense sticks atm, they make the room feel all warm and yummy.

aand shameless. im working my through them, im still on the first series but im loving it haha. its good. different. and the guy whos the dad, frank i think it is, well he is an amazing actor. seriously.

i am thirsty. sigh.

i am reading chosen, its good. my god. loren is a bit of an arsehole, i thought he was nice! but jeez zoey, i know you're a fictional character but you sure know how to mess up. i thought i was bad! woaa. :L but still, makes the book interesting, im addicted bei! haha.

im done.
x

do you really want to be forever young?

i saw what bonnie put.

I want to be who I used to be.
I want to live how I use to live.
I want to have who I used to have.

i totally agree so badly. why did everything have to change? karma bites ass. people change, situations change but why can't the things you want to stay the same, well, stay the same? lifes a bitch for sure. when one door closes another one opens but what if the door didnt want to close? does it have to close so the other one gets a chance, or could it not stay open, the door to the path of the stuff that should have stayed the same? eggs have broken, omelettes are being made surely, but how long until i get to taste the eggy goodness? i want what i had then, now, and at the same time what i've got now. its all so confusing. bonnie's right ;D i want to be back young again, before everything got complicated. lifes not simple anymore. i want it to be. but that doors closed. to open the one to being grown up and mature, and learning, but i want to shut that for now and reopen the other one, but thats not possible because these doors are hypothetical and not actually closable or openable. hmm. too much changes in the process of growing up. change is good they say, but really, is it? if what was there before was good enough why does change have to come along and open doors that i never wanted opened?

oh you pooface stp blaming me like its my fault, you like blaming. nothings ever your fault eh slag? i havent eaten that much so the foood is there, right in front of your eyes. but no, everything for you has to be jumping up going 'HEY IM HERE!' for you to even notice it, let alone observe it. for once look for yourself. like the rest of us have to.

im ranting about silly little things now but im in that kind of mood.

am really looking forward to tomorrow ;D but the cd went weird so now ive gotta redo that, and ive still gotta revise, i should be tired by now. but im not. i need to go to bed so im bright and early for the exam, but i know if i gob ed now i'l just be lying there until im tired anyway. however i am thirsty and may go and microwave some milk, apparently thats good for helping you sleep. i did my nails with these little gem things, i cant figure out if they look okay or not.

tomorrow after school is gonna be busy busy, get home about quarter to 4, shower, out the shower by quarter past, washing up, 4.25, get ready, pack stuff, go. i better make it on time. must remember the bus is at 1753. so after a shower i gots about an hour and a half to squeeze everything in. BUT NO MORE REVISION. by then the test will be done, failed or not. sigh.

i tidied a bit today. i got rid of quite a lot of stuff which i am happy about. my shelf looks better now. but im not getting rid of clothes. i love all my clothes. and what happens when the fashions repeat themselves? yes, you didnt think of that did you? muahahahahahah?!

and they'll be sun sun sun, all over our bodies

today the sun came out :') its been so long! i want summer please? i feel like ive been a vampire for about 4 months and i want summer so i can wear summer clothes:P

i am going to clear out my room. i need to get rid of some stuff for sure, just gotta decide what now ;D tomorrow i have a science exam :| but then katarinas birthday! man i am looking forward to that, been looking forward to it all week.

generally today was a good day :D
x

arse

its none of your business what im doing. i dont know where you get your information from or whatever but who are you to judge my actions? not only do you have no idea what youre talking about but you also have no right to jump to conclusions. im none of your business now, so fuck off, thanks.

secondly that is a huge relief. thank god. i feel like a weight has been completely lifted off my shoulders and now i dont have so many problems bombarding me at once. phew.

i did some revision tonight, im starting to feel a tiny bit confident about this test which is good :D tomorrow i have walktall which always makes me happy so im looking forward to that {: