Sunday, 20 March 2011

mini rant

right, so that so obviously wasn't aimed at all the people you call your friends was it?

you're a pretty big hypocrite tbh. there is so much i want to write in this post but i am not going to because it is pointless.

but if you really think that about us+our actions dont be friends with us, i do what i want because i'm only 15, therefore i dont have to be mature+settling down and all of that. you're never gonna get your teenage years again, so frankly i'm doing what i want. which does involve drink, drugs+sex, and all the other stuff you seem to look down upon us for. and frankly, i'd rather be out having a good time and doing things for me.

Monday, 28 February 2011

yeah but you see i just dislike people.

Sunday, 27 February 2011

here i am. maybe. im writing on here because i never do anymore+i dont want to write on tumblr.

i write a lot of letters these days; so im gonna do some on here, no names though.

person 1.
i'm so so proud of you. it's all big and scary and strange, but it's good because everything will be okay. i'll be there for you through it all; i promise.

person 2.
all these little things you do annoy me. then you blame stuff on me when it's your own fault. you can be incredibly self centred; the world does not revolve around your little arse. not everyone has to bow down at your feet. how can i trust you when you're so two faced? and act like everything is disgusting and that growing up is wrong. sorry i grew up.

person 3.
i miss you. why is stuff going wrong?

person 4.
you're a bit of a bitch aren't you. fine don't listen to me; it'll be you who loses out in the long run. HA. so, when you get fucked over, i hope you wish you'd listened. or you dont wish that and just feel completely shit.

person 5.
nothing else matters huh? conceited.

Monday, 13 September 2010

long time no see

i was reading all my old blogs on here.
a lot has changed since i last blogged, tbh i use tumblr now.
im sitting here in candlelight needing a pee, and wanting some noms. everyones gone to watch inbetweeners but i can't. so i'l watch it on 4od, but that'll be after everyones seen it :(

i looked at all my old posts, theres alot of my life from earlier this year and last year blogged on here. and a lot about glen, being referred to as 'cunt' a lot. it was kind of nice in a weird way reading up about that time of my life. i still think you're a cunt, just not to me anymore. to one of my best friends instead. WOOP DE WOOP. lol, it was strange rereading about how upset i was. they crying and anger and hate feels like so long ago now.

i'm year 11 now, top of the school :') part from the sixth formers, but unlike when i was year 7/8 i now know a lot of them ;D i hate the year 8's. the year 7's are okay atm, they're so cute. today one came up to me and asked me where a room was :') CUTEST VOICE EVER. i miss being her age :'( this year whatever on the bus today was so fucking loud. so i told him to shut up. and he said to me 'why dont you fucking shit up?' i mean wth. i wasnt even talking and shouting so the whole bus wanted me to get off the bloody bus. secondly what a great comeback. get back to preschool and learn some manners jerk.

i want to be bought flowers. and my pencil case is broke, ima have to sew it back together. fml, so much effort!

i got gloves today. also im cold, stupid winter. late summer fete? our school is stupid. GET US DECENT PLANNERS. no-ones gonna be there, i have better things to do on a saturday:L
NIGHT BITCHES.

Saturday, 17 July 2010

funny how these are all i do on here now :L

1. Who was your last text from?
karnn

2. Where was your default picture taken
biggin hill, THE TANK. woooo *cheers immaturely*

3. Your relationship status?
iar pretty much

4. Have you ever lost a close friend?
i've drifted from people /:

5. What is your current mood?
pretty kk, in dire need of sleeps

6. How many siblings do you have?
1

7. Whats your brother(s)/sister(s) names?
steph

8. Where do you wish you were right now?
exactly where i am, in bed :P

9. Have a crazy side?
oui

10. Ever had a near death experience?
er, not in particular, but i probably have had situations that i could have diedit

11. Something you do a lot?
SLEEP

12. Angry at anyone?
not really

13. What are your plans for today?
well its 22.49 so today only contains another hour and eleven minutes, when i've done this im gonna go bed. exciting!

14. When was the last time you cried?
that stupid beer bottle. yeah then

15. Is there anyone you would do anything for?
im not sure, i dont dwell on such things

16. What do you think about when you are falling asleep?
my day, scary things, situations, what i wanna say to people, etc

17. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
i deleted all my call logs recently, all i have on there is one to glen, but that wasnt me so it doesnt really count

18. What is your favorite song?
you and me - lifehouse

19. What are you doing right now?
this, and talking

20. Who do you trust right now?
my close friends, and my parents

21. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
its just a random sleepy top from primark

22. Have you kissed someone in the past week?
yes,
owain will be annoyed at me D:

23. Who is your friend that lives closest to you?
jakey ;D

24. Describe your life in one word?
annoying

25.Who are you thinking of right now?
my sister, her tv is loud and i need to tell her to stfu cos im going bed soon.

26. What should you be doing right now?
nothing, sleeping?

27. What are you listening to?
im not :( im in bed and didnt take my harddrive

28. Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
karnn

29. Who was the last person who yelled at you?
er, my dad

30. Do you act differently around the person you like?
not really actually, its simpler that way

31. What is your natural hair color?
dark blonde

32. Who was the last person to make you laugh?
my mother, i got home and she'd randomly brought me this little spongebob ball from morrisons for no reason :') lol

33. Who was the last person to make you sad?
mrs holmes, telling me i was the biggest dissapointment D: badtimes.

34. What do you hear?
my sisters telly :@

35. Is your hair curly or straight?
it depends what mood its in
that sounds weird but it actually does change

36. Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?
LOL, scrumptious. surprisingly, no.. :L

37. Do you have a best friend?
a few ;D

38. Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 3 days?
oui! yeah mrs holmes i am so not a dissapointment, look at my french skills! ;D

39. Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
yes :P

40. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
yes, more when i was younger than now though

41. Are you happy with life right now?
even when im not i try not to be a misery, there really is no point anyway
but right now im pretty happy with life

42. Are you currently jealous?
of some stuff i'm always jealous, but not specifically right now

43. What jewelery are you currently wearing?
my watch and some earrings, im about to go bed

44. What are you doing on friday night?
friday night was last night, but next friday night is THE FIRST FRIDAY NIGHT OF THE SUMMER WOOOOOOO, i dont have plans D:

45. Have you ever had your heart broken?
i thought so. :( but i dont spend time thinking about how shit i felt back then

46. Have you ever broken someone's heart?
i doubts it

47. Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now?
er, not really

48. What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?
WORST STOMACH CRAMPS EVER. D: horrible times. got some yellow pills, nomnomnonom

49. How late did you stay up last night and why?
i slept little bits, then went to bed properly at 4
and cos we was watching movies and shizzle

50. Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
no

Tuesday, 13 July 2010

boreddd

Do you think if you died, that the last person you kissed would even care?
i hope so

Let me guess, your last incoming call was from the opposite sex?
yes diljit rung me accidentally on science lol

Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with an D?
non

Do you have anything that belongs to an ex boyfriend/girlfriend?
yes


Where did you get that shirt you're wearing?
matt made it for me:P

You just took 15 shots of vodka, what are you doing?
tripping a lot, getting urges to run and roll and jump etc, getting off with random people, then falling asleep in a strange position

Is there a difference between "I love you" and "I'm in love with you?"
yes!

Do you believe in second chances?
i used too, now im more cautious. but yes.

Do you currently have a hickey?
no. but i have an ulcer on my tongue that hurts :(

Has anyone told you they don't wanna ever lose you?
possibly, not sure

Do you want to get married and have children one day?
hmm.

Are you an alcoholic?
no.

Does anyone call you babe or baby?
not really. only people who do it to everyone lol

Do you want to please everyone?
i try, and fail.

Is there any emotion you're trying to avoid right now?
impatience

Do you like beer?
yes

Do you have any tattoos?
i wish :(

When's the next time you will be getting piercings?
when i decide the time to get my belly done is now ;D

Are you wearing shoes right now?
bare foot, pjs

Do you feel like anyone is playing mind games with you right now?
actually not really , little bit on some people

Are you the kind of person who has crazy mood swings?
sometimes

How long is it until your birthday?
about 10 months

How old is your youngest sibling?
me :( 15

Do you bite your nails?
no, i stopped :) *proud*

How many baby showers have you been to?
none D:

What color is your shirt?
white

Would you rather be single or taken?
depends, single is easier, but taken is nicer.

Do you wear converse?
i dont own any :( someday i'l get round to buying some haha

Where do you want to live?
anywhere where i can have a bigger bedroom!

Have you ever kissed someone that was married?
no, im 15! jeesh

How many times a day do you crack your neck?
never! how do you even do that?

Have you ever painted a room?
wallpapered

Is English your first language?
tis tis

What's better: cookie dough or brownie batter?
brownie batter!

Tell me about the most recent dream you remember?
erm, i cant remember any at this point lol!

Do you go to church?
rarely

Do you like the smell of rubber cement?
no

How late did you stay up last night and why?
like 11? i'd had a 3 hour nap when i got home lol

What woke you up this morning?
phone

Do you wear bracelets?
no

What made you laugh the hardest today?
english :')

Do you play with fire?
when im bored

When did you last feel "not good enough"?
not for a while now :)

What song are you listening to?
chasing cars (live)

When was the last time you danced?
at wills, doing mine and katherines lil gay dances :')

What's the last thing you drew on yourself or someone else?
'i'll move to paris shoot some heroin and fuck with the stars' on my armxD

What's one thing you'd like to know about your future?
am i successful?

If you could, would you look at your future self?
yes!

You get on a bus, do you choose to sit on the left or right?
either, but always with a button right in front

Do you hate it when people play their music too loud?
i get annoyed when they play it without earphones

Can you go a day without thinking about the person that's on your mind now?
no

What ruined your day today?
the tongue ulcer!

Last night, did you go to sleep smiling?
average:P

Have you ever liked someone you didn't expect to?
YES

Are you a jealous person?
yes :/

Have you cried this week at all?
erm, i tried to make myself cry for some perfomance, couldnt :P

Are there some songs you can't listen to because they remind you of someone?
i have songs that remind me of people, i can listen to them

Did you sleep alone last night?
yes

Finish the sentence, school...
bores me, but i have art tomorrow ;D

Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
yeeees, joe/dan for tv+film, jordan, karnn, niall, people i cant remember, etcetc

Will you be sleeping alone tonight?
yes

When's the last time someone told you "someone would be lucky to have you?"
never.

Do you think anyone has you on their mind?
possibly the people i am talking to?

Do you know anyone that smokes weed?
yes

Have you ever made out with someone who has tattoos?
*thinks* no

Do you have a reason to smile right now?
kinda

Has anyone ever played you?
yes.

Last restaurant you went to?
burger king with matt! :L and the toilets in bartellas, how erotic

Does anyone have feelings for you?
yes

What would you say if someone asked you out right now?
im guessing no..

What was the last thing you purchased for someone?
i bought katherine food and cinema tickets{:

Will this weekend be a good one?
should be :)

Do you cry often?
more than i used to..

Who was the last person to tell you they love you?
maddie

When is the next time you'll talk on the phone?
erm, whenever i gotta ring someone?

Did you date anyone over the summer?
last summer? yeeeah

Ever deleted someone off of myspace?
yes, random pepole

Would you eat a live tarantula for $1,000?
live? wouldnt it bite me or sometihng? yeah i'd rather live tbh

This time last year, do you remember who you liked?
yes, glen /: how things change

Are there certain things that can't be joked about with you?
not really

How many piercings do you have?
my ears

Where is the furthest place you've traveled?
france

Have you ever kissed anyone who's name started with an R, D, G, J?
2/4 of em
congrats to me eh!

When a friend walks out of your life, do you go after them or let them go?
let them go if they want to, unhappily

Who are you closest to, mom or dad?
mum

Who would you like to see right now?
erm, jeremy clarkson<3

Do you believe in true love?
no

How many times have you dyed your hair?
0

Is it okay to kiss people when you're in a relationship?
i'd say if you're drunk and its a kissing game or something, but not to go round kissing everyone

Have you ever been so hurt that you wanted to stop feeling completely?
yes, *glares*

If you were kicked out of your home, who would you call?
rosie, she'd let me stay :)

Wednesday, 30 June 2010

hound of the baskervilles

im really not liking this essay. and the fact that my teacher has left for a nice little holiday in france, while leaving, and expecting, us to write the essay by ourselves. and not making that slideshow available.
after going through what we needed to write far too fast to write down, and then when we ask to make the slideshow available to us. you just pretended you didn't hear us. and now i really need it. this essay is hard, and i'm not really sure anything i'm writing is valid. plus, i'm not writing enough. i think i'l be done by 2 pages, and thats really not long enough is it? yet you'll say that, and expect me to make it longer, but not explain what with. its all well and good saying what is the effect of this? i dont know! and there isnt one anyway, the author writes because they write, they dont write every word with analytical meaning. stupid.

when i barely scrape a c in this essay, dont blame me.

Monday, 28 June 2010

im ill, im bored k?

100 Truths! After you've filled this out, tag people and have them do the same.

1. Last beverage? wa-ter
2. Last phone call? madison
3. Last text message? 'Lol no the most of a book ive read were the asterix comics, ive seen like half hour of the movie but i feel asleep'
4. Last song you listened to? your love is my drug- ke$ha
5. Last time you cried? when chris threw a beer bottle at my face.

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice? yupooooo
7. Been cheated on? i believe now
8. Kissed someone & regretted it? YES.
9. Lost someone special? yes
10. Been depressed? yes
11. Been drunk? yes, frequently these days


LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. teal
13. green
14. orange

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Made new friends? yuppos
16. Fallen out of love? yes, fortunately
17. Laughed until you cried? all the time. haha
18. Met someone who changed you? yes
19. Found out who your true friends were? i guess, though i knew before
20. Found out someone was talking about you? yes, a few times
21. Kissed anyone on your tagged list? quite a few, oh dear oh dear, note to self; do not kiss people at parties, ever.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life? all of them except a few
23. How many kids do you want to have? none+
24. Do you have any pets? fred <3 <3 <3
25. Do you want to change your name? no, how confusing that would be
26. What did you do for your last birthday? went to camer with people
27. What time did you wake up today? 7
28. What were you doing at midnight last night? trying to sleep, fail
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for? the end of this.
30. Last time you saw your father? this morning
31. What is 1 thing you wish you could change about your self? theres a lot
32. What are you listening to right now? bring me home - the morning of
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? yeaaaaas
34. What's getting on your nerves right now? nothing really
36. Whats your real name? zoe king
38. Zodiac sign? taurus
39. Male or female? female
41. Middle School? new ash green
42. High school? me-o-fam
43. Hair color? dark blonde
44. Long or short? long
45. Height? 5"5
46. Have a crush on someone? crush lol
47. What do you like about yourself ? the tan im working on;D
48. Piercings? ears
49. Tattoos? none
50. Righty or lefty? righty


FIRSTS :
51. First surgery? never
52. First piercing? ears
53. First tattoo? never D:
54. First best friend? rosie{:
55. First sport you joined? netbaaaall
56. First pet? fred:)
57. First vacation remembered? wales
59. First crush? i have no idea haha

RIGHT NOW:
61. Eating? feta cheese salad
62. Drinking? wa-ter
63. I'm about to? switch the tab to facebook
64. Listening to? if you wanted a song written about you all you had to do was ask - mayday parade
65. Waiting for? er, nothing

YOUR FUTURE :
66. Want kids? : no
67. Want to get married? depends
68. Careers in mind? design

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
69. Lips or eyes? eyes
70. Hugs or kisses? hugs
71. Shorter or taller? taller
72. Older or Younger? older
73. Romantic or spontaneous? romantic
74. Nice stomach or nice arms? nice stomach
75. Tattoos or piercings? tattoos
76. Sensitive or loud? sensative
77. Hook-up or relationship? relationship i guess?
78. Trouble maker or hesitant? hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER :
79. Kissed a stranger? kind of
80. Drank hard liquor? no
81. Lost glasses/contacts ? i lost my yellow heart glasses :(
82. Sex on first date? no
83. Broken someone's heart? i doubt it
84. Had your own heart broken? sort of
85. Been arrested? no
86. Turned someone down? yes
87. Cried when someone died? yeah
88. Liked a friend that is a girl? no


DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself? no
90. Miracles? no
91. Love at first sight? no
92. Heaven? yes
93. Santa Claus? no
94. Kissing on the first date? no

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
96. Is there one person you want to be with right now? no
97. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? no
98. Do you believe its possible to remain faithful forever? yes
99. What's the one thing you cannot live without? water.
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? meh
Do you have a wireless keyboard and mouse?
i did, the keyboard never worked and i spilt pepsi on the mouse, mybad

Last sporting event you watched on tv or in person?
the football at wills house haha :')

Do you like it when toothpaste bubbles in your mouth?
toothpaste bubbles, wtf, since when?!

Do you believe that the world is gonna end at 2012?
no, rosie explained why to me, and i dont believe it will

How many songs are on your iPod or MP3 Player?
100ish?

Have you ever made your own survey?
no :L

Can you swear inside your house?
yes

Have you ever had a pet goldfish?
nope :(

What is the most overrated thing in your opinion?
the jonas brothers

Does being in love make you gain weight?
noooooo, i'd say it makes you lose weight more lol

Dumbest person you know? and why?
watkins :')

Do your parents have home videos of you as a kid?
there are pictures, but not videos

How old is your oldest cousin?
20 something

If you HAD to get a tattoo, where and what would it be?
something i'd designed myself, probably on my shoulder, or on my belly (although this is probably a bad idea, stretch much?) so probably my shoulder

Do you think Obama has tried drugs?
probably, at some point

What color is your bra or boxers?
my bras black

Do you have a picture with your middle finger up?
i dont think so

When is the last time you went to a birthday party?
keirans, 5th june {:

Who/what is the best thing to happen to you this year so far?
no idea

How long have you lived in the house you live in?
my whole life, 15 years ish ;D

Do you read a newspaper daily?
no haha

Anything your really afraid of?
loud noises always get me D: thats it really

Do you read tabloids?
no

Have you ever had a really bad haircut?
i dont think so

Do you like your peanut butter crunchy or creamy?
i dont like peanut butter at all

What is the scariest movie you've ever seen?
i have no idea, its strange but one that actually scared me was jeepers creepers 2, which looking back on is lame ;D the human centipede was pretty creepo, and the rest didnt really effect me

Have you ever ridden a skateboard?
yes, im giving up though because i suck badly

Do you drink enough water on a daily basis?
yes, water<3

Would you burn the American flag for a million dollars?
yeah, anyday haha, id be set for life pretty much, all for burning a flag

The main thing you cant leave your house without?
phone, ipod, purse

When was the last time you read a book?
im reading one atm, always have one on the go

Where did you get that shirt you're wearing?
yog last year xD

Do you play pranks on April Fools Day?
if the oppurtunity presents itself hehe

What is on your bed right now?
duvet, pillows, toys, ipod, phone, clothes

When was the last time you threw up?
very close to today, but not since i puked up mucus a while ago

Are you single?
not really

How long have you been together or single?
its complicated to explain, haha

What's your favorite word or phrase?
when im drunk i tell people to fuck off a lot
but i love saying loads of stuff

Name 3 people who made you smile today?
rosie, my mother, karnn

What were you doing at 8 am this morning?
laying in bed trying to find a position that stopped the painfulness, then the drugs kicked in hehe

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
talking to people, tagging yog pics

What is your favorite holiday?
i dont have one really/:

Have you ever been to another country?
yesio

What is the last thing you said aloud?
'mister'

What is the best ice cream flavor?
CHOCOLATE FUDGE BROWNIE. <3

What was the last thing you had to drink?
-creepy german accent-
wa-ter.

What are you wearing right now?
denim shorts and yog top

What was the last thing you ate?
pizza and chips, cos im blates healthy

Have you bought any new clothing items this week?
ive ordered two tops and a pair of boots, not here yet ¬¬

When was the last time you ran?
yesterdaaaaaaay, i ran away

If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?
somewhere nice

Who is the last person you sent a comment/message on myspace?
no-idea, i dont go on myspace a lot

Ever go camping?
quite a few times actually, the most recent was okay i guess

Do you have a tan?
i've put a lot of effort in, and i can say im sort of tanned :)

Have you ever lost anything down a toilet?
bracelets hairties, etc

Do you use smiley faces on the computer alot?
yesssss

Do you drink your soda from a straw?
occasionally, if straws are available :P

What did your last text message say?
'Omg a cow ahhh'
-matt
:')

Are you someone's best friend?
yeprrrrprpr

What are you doing tomorrow?
school, and walktallio's

Where is your mom right now?
downstairs
*mum

Look to your left, what do you see?
the door

What color is your watch?
black and white, it sounds boring but i love it :)

What do you think of when you think of Australia?
kangaroos
'do you wanna buy a kangaroo, or a didgerydoo?'

Ever ridden on a roller coaster?
yes, but not the really big ones, they are scary D:

What is your birthstone?
emerald<3

Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive tthru?
i've never gone through a drive through haha

Do you have any friends on myspace that you actually hate?
not on myspace

Do you have a dog?
nope

Last person you talked to on the phone?
t'was maddie, when she walked off randomly

Any plans today?
sims, dinner, bath, bed

Are you happy?
pretty much, except you, *glares at body*

Where are you right now?
in my room

Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
being a woman, the general menstrual cycle, cramps

Last song listened to?
levi song-seasick steve+the level devils

Last movie you saw?
the simpsons movie?
or if in the cinema, probably how to train your dragon{:

Are you allergic to anything?
erm, not yet..

Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
i dont really wear specific shoes, it varies

Are you jealous of anyone?
many many people

Are you married?
to maddie <3

Is anyone jealous of you?
i doubt it, muchily

Do you eat healthy?
sometimes haha

What do you usually do during the day?
school, sleep

Do you hate anyone right now?
yes.

Do you use the word 'hello' daily?
obviously, who never says hello?

How many kids do you want when you're older?
i dont want kids tbh

How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
16

How did u get one of your scars?
chicken pox¬_¬

Thursday, 24 June 2010

updatings on this years aims ;D

so we're about halfway through the year, lets see how im doing.

get some boots (and getting a second pair!(A) )
keep my 'book' up for at least 4 months, if not the whole year. this will never happen, i stopped when i hated glen haha
get a photo album
& get a load of photos developed
read all the house of night books (im pretty close, 2nd to last atm ;D
update my room walls
fill up my sketchpad
see a 3d film (TOY STORY PLEASETH!) (AVATAR. but toy story i will too :D)
have a relationship longer that 6 months
change my hair again
get rechargeable batteries
see owain more, it sucks now he works saturdays :\ (but not enough still)
improve photography (kinda, i dont really need to)
boy shopping, and find many numero onche's ;D
improve art + get a good grade (A)
make jack come shopping with me
get a keyboard
go ice skating
say less stupid stuff
new laptop, [hoping]
be in something official at walktall (pantomime/filming etc)
improve my acting/lying skilllllllz
achieve my end of year 10 targets
have 1000 songs (currently 2120)
get a job
read the jeremy clarkson book (A)
have an ice age marathon
go to rosies and have a home alone marathon :P
more clothes? :P
stay up to date with coursework
make dann healthier. utter fail, hes dead.
lose a bitta weight. again fail, badly.
camp out over summer
go to broadstairs in the summer again :')
get a boots card

Sunday, 13 June 2010

cold wind blows

today was very unproductive yet t'was fun anyway. i actually slept quite well, was actually quite comfortable considering i wasnt in my own bed, i slept a good 4 hours {: we had 2 o'clock noms on indian food, which we ate with spoons, and then glen decided to put the action/x-men in erotic positions.. hmmmmm. :L and the rolo;) nomnomnoms.
went back up into the shag pad (which they would not let me clean..and was filthy. gah!) and fell asleep from about 3am to about 7ish? layed for a while, ate some toast + drank some apple juice, then walked into town, and (this is the amazing bit) there was a 489 just driving in! that never happens! especially on a sunday :P which was pretty lucky, i was chuffed. nearly fell asleep on the bus home though :L

after that i cotched most of the day, watched the simpsons movie and had a nice hot long bath, mmmmmmmmmmmm. then went to work, where they worked me really hard. but it was kk :') cos i get monies. and cleaning relaxes me, sorta. but it was a bit repetitive. but i like the smell of cleaning products. its a love thing for meh {:

and here i am now :)
im starting to blog on life more, cos i like doing it. even if no-one else does anymore xD
night all :)
-ps most of my blog names just come from the song name i'l be listening to at the time, cos i cba to think of a name :P

Friday, 11 June 2010

i know where i've been

i've been a week back at school and im already wanting a half term. the weather has been yucky, rain rain rain. i do hate england rather a lot sometimes ¬_¬
but today was a special day in the ol' canteen, which meant i had a burger for lunch. this made me happy, because i like burgers. and the wedgies, oh they were so good.

i've been putting off sorting my wardrobe/wall/shelf/general tidying for a while now, i should get round to doing that i guess. except i cba. last night i did my coursework though. well the editing of it. this weekend i aim to try and improve it around the edges, then print it out in i.t on monday. in the class of poobum, who smells like poo. *glares*

walktall is going well, my character has such good lines :') had a chat with enzo, he says he gave it to me cos he thinks i could pull it off, :L i read between the lines and am thinking its cos im gobby. but hey, i get to tell him to 'grow a pair' anyway, so its all good ;D

tongiht i doubt i am doing anything, tomorrow i was going swimming but then kathi was 'busy' and we are going to go bluewater or something instead. i am not 100% sure. and something with matt possibly sunday, cos everyone else is practising dancing D: or maybe i'l just sleep.

tomorrow is doctor who, i hope its good. also, next years freedom passes are green! this makes me excited, im loving green. or at least it is on the picture. so hopefully it is ;) *crosses fingers*

anyway, im off to not sort out my room and wardrobe, and maybe go and have a nice game of yahtzy.

peace.

Tuesday, 1 June 2010

its better than being on your side

you're just embaressing yourself.
stop trying to get my involved in your overexaggeration.
and stop assuming things that aren't going on because i won't tell you everything you want to know.
and thats so drastic its unbelievable. they say teenagers are overdramatic, look at that.

hmph.

Friday, 28 May 2010

half termage!

it pleases me there are people like you in the world, it makes it a better place.
:D

today i had two lunches:P i had a plate of pasta which i bought myself then dan didnt eat half of his pizza+chips so i ate that then chris gave me a kitkat. i had such a food baby by then end:P but i had double p.e after so hopefully a little burned off, 'cept i didnt do a lot. well i ran about 200m. i dont like running much :D but me and maddie had a little chat whilst we were waiting for the organisey relay shit, it was good to get all that out.

you did know, im not stupid. but maybe you werent lying? you dont strike me as the dishonest type.. you're a nice'n. however it's not really your fault. i dont mind anyway, lets not drag up the past more than is neccessary here.

hello highly thinker i did not know you thought highly of me. people surprise me all the time nowadays.

my holiday plans for half term :D:D:D
friday/tonight : HUT! matts birthday, better get drawing.. wish it didnt fail.
saturday : expo, need a wig! aaaah
sunday : karnn's dwelling
monday : see my nan xD
tuesday : OWAINS, me hopes. i miss you.
wednesday : fail piss up? possibility i'l go.
thursday : emilys? possibly.
friday : empty!
saturday : keirans party then stay at emily's
sunday : stumble home. :P
monday : SLEEPAGE.

i said to maddie she could come over at some point during half term so i may have her over friday. she wanted to meet fred, apaz glen calls him fat a lot. he is going to get some beatings. *contemplates* :L

my fashionunion order get messed up. not by them but the delivery, its possible the people at the factory thingamy have tampered with it and stolen my clothes D: we got some ugly shoes and plain tops. joy. *sad face*
and i was planning on wearing them this half term.

i think im done.
no-one blogs anymore, yet they want people to blog so they can read? unfairyness :P it is strange, i was looking earlier and in jan+feb i was blogging 20+ times a month, now im doing barely 10. maybe thats a good thing? my blogs sometimes backfire:P oh well.
LATERS!

Saturday, 22 May 2010

anyone listening?

well that brought my mood right down/:

although i deserve it.

it felt best?

i miss stuff.

please let it be ok.

Monday, 17 May 2010

somes

100 Truths! After you've filled this out, tag people and have them do the same.

1. Last beverage? tango orange
2. Last phone call? will, he rang me to find where we were xD
3. Last text message? tom, telling me his new number
4. Last song you listened to? only one final - owain lewis. one of his first song apaz:D
5. Last time you cried? a while ago.

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice? indeed.
7. Been cheated on? no
8. Kissed someone & regretted it? oh god, yes. goddamn alcohol :L
9. Lost someone special? yes
10. Been depressed? yes
11. Been drunk? yes ;L


LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. teal
13. green
14. orange

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Made new friends? yes, all the time xD
16. Fallen out of love? yes, *proud*
17. Laughed until you cried? regularly :L
18. Met someone who changed you? i have.
19. Found out who your true friends were? i knew already
20. Found out someone was talking about you? yes
21. Kissed anyone on your tagged list? er..yes 8)
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life? 331, and before you ask, yes of course i know ash ketchum.
23. How many kids do you want to have? none/2
24. Do you have any pets? my beloved fred<3
25. Do you want to change your name? non
26. What did you do for your last birthday? camer, got drunk in a terrible way and couldnt walk
27. What time did you wake up today? 7am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night? sleepin'
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for? summer!
30. Last time you saw your father? this morn
31. What is 1 thing you wish you could change about your self? my nose
32. What are you listening to right now? lions and tigers - asobi seksu
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? tom clark amongst some others
34. What's getting on your nerves right now? my tiredness
36. Whats your real name? zoe tamsin king
38. Zodiac sign? taurus
39. Male or female? female
41. Middle School? new ash green primary
42. High school? me o fam
43. Hair colour? dark blonde
44. Long or short? long.
45. Height? 5"5ish
46. Have a crush on someone? ish
47. What do you like about yourself? er, my lips
48. Piercings? ears
49. Tattoos? id like some xD
50. Righty or lefty? right


FIRSTS :
51. First surgery? never
52. First piercing? ears
53. First tattoo? none YET
54. First best friend? rosie ;D
55. First sport you joined? netball
56. First pet? FRED!
57. First vacation remembered? wales
58. First concert? dunno
59. First crush? no idea:L

RIGHT NOW:
61. Eating? not
62. Drinking? not
63. I'm about to? sniffle
64. Listening to? hometown glory (high contrast remix) - adele
65. Waiting for? bedtime

YOUR FUTURE :
66. Want kids? no
67. Want to get married? someday
68. Careers in mind? interior designer, magazine editor, not sure yet

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
69. Lips or eyes? eyes
70. Hugs or kisses? hugs
71. Shorter or taller? taller
72. Older or Younger? older
73. Romantic or spontaneous? romantic
74. Nice stomach or nice arms? stomach
75. Tattoos or piercings? either, just not drastically
76. Sensitive or loud? inbetween
77. Hook-up or relationship? depends on my mood
78. Trouble maker or hesitant? trouble maker

HAVE YOU EVER :
79. Kissed a stranger? kinda
80. Drank hard liquor? yeah
81. Lost glasses/contacts? dont wear them
82. Sex on first date? no
83. Broken someone's heart? possibly
84. Had your own heart broken? yes
85. Been arrested? no lol
86. Turned someone down? yeah and i hate the guilt
87. Cried when someone died? yes
88. Liked a friend that is a girl? yeah, me and my friends are all just lesbians at heart :')


DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself? no
90. Miracles? mo
91. Love at first sight? no
92. Heaven? no
93. Santa Claus? no
94. Kissing on the first date? depends

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
96. Is there one person you want to be with right now? no
97. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? no
98. Do you believe its possible to remain faithful forever? if you're happy
99. What's the one thing you cannot live without? free will
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? no ;D

here is gone

you're right. somehow it is about me. how do i do this? spin webs of hurting people i never wanted to hurt?

how did this happen? im digging deep.

now i have to decide.
which will involve panic. and pain.

yay.

Saturday, 8 May 2010

effing prom.

awww fuck.
fuckity fuck fuck fuck.

i need people online. badly?
i should have gone to bed then this wouldnt have happened.

person #1; im not going with you, you sort of repulse me. WHY ARE YOU ASKING ME ANYWAY? oh god. you are a rapist.
person #2; if you are being serious about that i am truly going to hate myself. gaaaaaaaawd. i dont want to go at all! i will look like a fish out of water. and i wont know hardly anyone that i can talk to easily and feel not so selfconscious.
and wearing dresses makes me feel like a blob.
it's not my year, supposed to be year 11!
i would look like a fish out of water, not to mention a bit of an idiot. eurgh. how did this happen? i need to sleep on this.
god i feel like bella, maybe i should travel somewhere a long way away to go shopping. or break my leg. YES!
then i wont be able to go.
but this solution is unpractical. euuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuurgh.

Tuesday, 4 May 2010

81 out of 132

Key -
(X) = Yes (-)= maybe/sort of/ kinda (0) = No

Level 1
(-) Smoked A Cigarette
(0) Smoked A Cigar
(0) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
(X) Drank Alcohol

SO FAR: 1.5

Level 2
(X) Are / Been In Love
(X) Been Dumped
(X) Shoplifted
(X) Been Fired
(0) Been In A Fist Fight

SO FAR: 4.5

Level 4
(X) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(0) Skipped School
(0) Slept With A Co-worker
(X) Seen Someone / Something Die

SO FAR: 6.5

Level 5
(X) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Facebook Friends
(0) Been To Paris
(0) Been To Spain
(0) Been On A Plane
(0) Thrown Up From Drinking

SO FAR: 7.5

Level 6
(0) Eaten Sushi
(0) Been Snowboarding
(X) Met Someone BECAUSE Of Facebook (internet)
(x) Been in a Mosh Pit

SO FAR: 9.5

Level 7
(0) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(X) Taken Pain Killers
(X) Love/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(X) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(X) Made A Snow Angel

SO FAR: 13.5

Level 8
(X) Had A Tea Party
(X) Flown A Kite
(X) Built A Sand Castle
(X) Gone mudding (offroading)
(X) Played Dress Up

SO FAR: 18.5

Level 9
(X) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(X) Gone Sledging
(X) Cheated While Playing A Game
(X) Been Lonely
(X) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

SO FAR: 23.5

Level 10
(X) Watched The Sun Set
(0) Felt An Earthquake
(0) Killed A Snake

SO FAR: 24.5

Level 11
(X) Been Tickled
(X) Been Robbed / Vandalized
(0) Been cheated on
(X) Been Misunderstood

SO FAR: 27.5

Level 12
(X) Won A Contest
(0) Been Suspended From School
(X) Had Detention
(0) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident

SO FAR: 29.5

Level 13
(0) Had / Have/need Braces
(X) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(0) Danced in the moonlight

SO FAR: 30.5

Level 14
(X) Hated The Way You Look
(-) Witnessed A Crime
(0) Pole Danced
(X) Questioned Your Heart
(0)Been obsessed with post-it-notes

SO FAR: 33

Level 15
(X) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(X) Been Lost
(0) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(X) Swam In The Ocean
(X) Felt Like You Were Dying

SO FAR: 37

Level 16
(X) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(X) Played Cops And Robbers
(X) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(X) Sang Karaoke
(X) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

SO FAR: 42

Level 17
(X) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(X) Made Prank Phone Calls
(X) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
(0) Kissed In The Rain

SO FAR: 45

Level 18
(X) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(X) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(X) Blown Bubbles
(X) Made A Bonfire On The Beach or anywhere

SO FAR: 49

Level 19
(0) Crashed A Party
(0) Have Travelled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(X) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(X) Had A Wish Come True
(0) Been Humped By A Monkey

SO FAR: 51

Level 20
(0) Worn Pearls
(X) Jumped Off A Bridge
(X) Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina"
(0) Swam With Dolphins

SO FAR: 53

Level 22
(X) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
(0) Kissed A Fish
(X) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(X) Sat On A Roof Top

SO FAR: 56

Level 23
(X) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
(X) Done / ATTEMPTED A One-Handed Cartwheel
(0) Talked On The Phone For More Than 4 Hours
(0) Recently stayed Up for a while talking to someone you care about

SO FAR: 58

Level 24
(X) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(X) Climbed A Tree
(X) Had/Been In A Tree House
(X) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone--

SO FAR: 62

Level 25
(X) Believed In Ghosts
(0) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
(0) Gone Streaking-
(0) Visited Jail

SO FAR: 63

Level 26
(0) Played Chicken
(0) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(X) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
(0) Broken A Bone
(X) Been Easily Amused

SO FAR: 65

Level 27
(0) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
(0) Made A Porn Video
(0) Caught A Butterfly..
(X) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(X) Cried So Hard You Laughed

SO FAR: 67

Level 28
(X) Mooned/Flashed Someone
(X) Had Someone Moon/Flash You LOL
(X) Cheated On A Test
(X) Forgotten Someone's Name
(X) French Braided Someones Hair
(0) Gone Skinny Dipping
(0) Been Kicked Out Of Your House
(X) Tried to hurt yourself

SO FAR: 73

Level 29
(X) Rode A Roller Coaster
(X) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
(0) Had A Cavity
(X) Black-Mailed Someone
(X) Been Black Mailed

SO FAR: 77

Level 31
(X) Been Used
(X) Fell Going Up The Stairs
(0) Licked A Cat
(X) Bitten Someone
(X) Licked Someone

SO FAR: 81

Level 32
(0) Been shot at/or at gunpoint
(0) Had sex in the rain
(0) Flattened someones tires
(0) Rode your bike/Driven your car until the fuel light came on
(0) Got five pounds or less worth of fuel

TOTAL: 81

Re-post this with the title I've done 81 Out of a 132 Stupid Things

she wants to be me.

IF SOMEONE ASKS 'ARE YOU OKAY?' YOU SAY:
FACK

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
broken strings

WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
better man

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
broccolli

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
boys boys boys
oh yay.

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO
i want to hold your hand

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
bonkers

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
sad story

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
a new beginning

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT YOUR FIRST KISS?
take a bow.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
bad influence
er yeah, SHE'S the bad influence ;) ;) ;)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
dirty little secret

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
22
lol

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
the (after)life of the party

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
flourescent adolescent

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
stay with me

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
just looking

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
changes

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
i get all the girls
;)

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
dance lessons

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
a hard day's night

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
she wants to be me