stupid, cuss, drowzee

sup.
im going to go straight into it, no intro.

im sick of being stupid and fat. you all think your real original taking the piss, but believe me - i've heard all your shit before. i've heard the blonde jokes and i like them. today i got;
'im listening'
'listening to what, the air flowing between your ears?'.
..aha

yupp, you think you're so damn original, believe me i've had 'your dumb' told to me in every single way. and no matter how hard i try i cant throw off the rep. in primary i was one of the smartest + now look at me. one of the dumbest. everythings gone downhill. you watch me get annoyed and tell me 'you're academically smart but just got no common sense'. right okay. so i'm in top set for everything, + you think i'm 'academically smart' yet you still think im stupid. actually what have i got to do? i don't think before i speak because im too lazy (don't even go to the lazy cuss' here) and if i did i'd get nowhere in life cos i'd never talk. i get it, im not the smartest brick in the wall. but do you really have to throw it in my face every moment? the fat things not so bad tbh, cos i can overcome that mentally because i can pretend you don't mean it in my head, then start a brand new diet and shiz.

and even when i get myself into a good mood where im happy and singing etc. you people know exactly how to fuck it out. i mean, i get into a good mood, its all good. and you immediately take it away so im pissed off, angry at you, and angry at life. and theres nothing i can do about it. you just do it, i dont know whether it's deliberate or you don't actually mean to, but i guess i got to live with it. just because you do something doesn't mean i should, and if i don't then what i do is wrong. just because i don't want to give you things you don't deserve when i know you'll NEVER return the favour doesn't make me selfish - just sick of you. just because i play sports and want to win doesn't mean im aggressive - just because i tackle and intercept doesn't mean im 'too competitive' ITS THE POINT OF THE BLOODY GAME, to get the ball! watch sport, THEY TRY AND GET THE BALL. it's how it works. just because you don't doesnt mean im too aggressive. and i will stare into space and blank you all i want thankyou very much.

this blogs kind of delayed, its not as angry because i was pissed off when i got him. well not pissed off, just in a contemplatey mood. and then i got home, had some cheese on toast, watched an old 8 out of 10 cats...then fell asleep. i woke up at 8 o clock really drowsy, and two hours later here i am xD

drowzee, oh how that brings back memories.

anyways, the snow has stopped which im thoroughly dissappointed about, but form party tomorrow and i have a pizza in the over, and bit of gavin and stacey / true blood in 5, so its all good [:

i feel i've forgotten something i was gonna write about, so when it comes to me i'l blog :P