oh right. you're apologising. congratulations.
oh really? you could have been more nice about it? wow, thats almost noticing OTHER PEOPLE have emotions. never thought id see you do that.
whatever tbh. still empty. glad.
i still want to throw rocks at you. :D
but, now thats all done and completely over, im going to enjoy my life as a singleton, and on valentines day i am going to pig on icecream with katherine. any joiners? {;
Wednesday, 3 February 2010
wanna go back
i wanna go back to last summer.
i wanna go back to the sleepover with cat kathi and jamielee. that day was so amazing, sunbathing in that field, going to the clay beach then the cotage pie, then the pokemon wars, and blomblom, easnt bored once, such an amazing day <3
i wanna go back to broadstairs. i wanna go back to that day, before everything went wrong, to the days when you were really nice to me and you hadnt turned into an arse. i actually loved that day, the train, the sunbathing, buying that boat and going out into the sea loads, having to spend loads of effort walking because the sand was heavy, so fun ^.^
i wanna go back to that really hot day at bluewater when we went paddling in the lakes, and spent hours just on that little pebble bit of bluewater.
i wanna go back to kat's sleepover birthday, eating loads of thai sweet chilli crisps, chicago+team america(even though i fell asleep:L) catherines endless 'smells', doing the physical attractiveness test, eating ice cream with pippa, the cookie cake :D
i wanna go back to my birthday. strange how social groups can change so much in less than a year. i remember those days, when all the people who came were my closest friends, some of you i dont even talk to anymore. but the day was so so good, before everything got complicated, its like i said, my birthday was the turning point of everything going wrong. hmm.
i know i cant go back to those times, so im just gonna be happy that they happened and they were times i was so happy. i miss the days when things weren't so complicated. but hey, i've had some amazing times in my life {:
i wanna go back to the sleepover with cat kathi and jamielee. that day was so amazing, sunbathing in that field, going to the clay beach then the cotage pie, then the pokemon wars, and blomblom, easnt bored once, such an amazing day <3
i wanna go back to broadstairs. i wanna go back to that day, before everything went wrong, to the days when you were really nice to me and you hadnt turned into an arse. i actually loved that day, the train, the sunbathing, buying that boat and going out into the sea loads, having to spend loads of effort walking because the sand was heavy, so fun ^.^
i wanna go back to that really hot day at bluewater when we went paddling in the lakes, and spent hours just on that little pebble bit of bluewater.
i wanna go back to kat's sleepover birthday, eating loads of thai sweet chilli crisps, chicago+team america(even though i fell asleep:L) catherines endless 'smells', doing the physical attractiveness test, eating ice cream with pippa, the cookie cake :D
i wanna go back to my birthday. strange how social groups can change so much in less than a year. i remember those days, when all the people who came were my closest friends, some of you i dont even talk to anymore. but the day was so so good, before everything got complicated, its like i said, my birthday was the turning point of everything going wrong. hmm.
i know i cant go back to those times, so im just gonna be happy that they happened and they were times i was so happy. i miss the days when things weren't so complicated. but hey, i've had some amazing times in my life {:
Tuesday, 2 February 2010
cuppa tea + catherines mum? i think so.
so heres my trail of emotions since you dumped me like shit.
confused -> regretful -> sad -> hysterical -> annoyed -> angry -> empty.
yesterday i wanted to go up to you, scream in your face and punch you in your stupid big face. now i couldnt care. ive got such amazing friends i dont need you, or your big head.
today i went to catherines house before walktall, and had a nice cup of tea and a chat with her mum, who is amazing. she said boys are stupid throw stones at them. to which rosie+kat responded, 'i will gladly join you in that'. then when i said to her why she said 'now why on earth could anyone think your not good enough. the thing is, boys at your age, they have the attention span of a gnat.' this not only made me laugh my head off but made me feel worth something. and i realised, i dont need you, ive got everyone i need right by me.
then we got macdonalds, and went to walktall, where rosie became phillip burgerneese, a gay polishman who pooed because he got poked by george mackey in english. then we filmed it, couldnt stop laughing <3
i love everyone who's been there for me while ive been a depressed blob.
rosie, thank you for being there to talk, moan and cry to, then nearly punching him in the face for me. ♥
katherine, thank you for telling him exactly what you thought, and reassuring me when i got into hysterics in your car. ♥
katarina, thank you for being there when it happened. if you werent there i dont know what would have happened. but i bet it would have been worse. and thank you for not going on about it and letting me make digs at myself+him all night. ♥
sam, thank you for the square of aero when i needed chocolate therapy. ♥
aimee, thank you for making me laugh when i was hardly even talking. ♥
amy cookie, thank you for your hugs. they are the best hugs in the world, so reassuring. ♥
catherine/catherines mum, thank you for making me feel worth something, and making me laugh, and buying macdonalds, always good ♥
frank, (strange one :L) but you did actually make me feel better, even though i could tell you were struggling with what to say, lol. ♥
amy, thank you for being there. making me feel not alone. ♥
katarinas mum, thankyou for icecream and laughter, lol. ♥
so yeh,thanks guys :D and sorry if ive been hard to talk to or a bit of a misery. im done now.
confused -> regretful -> sad -> hysterical -> annoyed -> angry -> empty.
yesterday i wanted to go up to you, scream in your face and punch you in your stupid big face. now i couldnt care. ive got such amazing friends i dont need you, or your big head.
today i went to catherines house before walktall, and had a nice cup of tea and a chat with her mum, who is amazing. she said boys are stupid throw stones at them. to which rosie+kat responded, 'i will gladly join you in that'. then when i said to her why she said 'now why on earth could anyone think your not good enough. the thing is, boys at your age, they have the attention span of a gnat.' this not only made me laugh my head off but made me feel worth something. and i realised, i dont need you, ive got everyone i need right by me.
then we got macdonalds, and went to walktall, where rosie became phillip burgerneese, a gay polishman who pooed because he got poked by george mackey in english. then we filmed it, couldnt stop laughing <3
i love everyone who's been there for me while ive been a depressed blob.
rosie, thank you for being there to talk, moan and cry to, then nearly punching him in the face for me. ♥
katherine, thank you for telling him exactly what you thought, and reassuring me when i got into hysterics in your car. ♥
katarina, thank you for being there when it happened. if you werent there i dont know what would have happened. but i bet it would have been worse. and thank you for not going on about it and letting me make digs at myself+him all night. ♥
sam, thank you for the square of aero when i needed chocolate therapy. ♥
aimee, thank you for making me laugh when i was hardly even talking. ♥
amy cookie, thank you for your hugs. they are the best hugs in the world, so reassuring. ♥
catherine/catherines mum, thank you for making me feel worth something, and making me laugh, and buying macdonalds, always good ♥
frank, (strange one :L) but you did actually make me feel better, even though i could tell you were struggling with what to say, lol. ♥
amy, thank you for being there. making me feel not alone. ♥
katarinas mum, thankyou for icecream and laughter, lol. ♥
so yeh,thanks guys :D and sorry if ive been hard to talk to or a bit of a misery. im done now.
Monday, 1 February 2010
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