kick in the balls

well thats stupid. i can see pretty clearly thats not love, and saying it isnt going to make it so. i think you're stupid. what a stupid thing to say. you just dont want to because you're afraid of reactions, yes reactions and consequences. if you loved that much, it wouldnt matter. lies dont make anything better in the long run. and you're just going to be an arsehole again. its not deserved, so stop it. respect the fragileness. its viewable. all the x's in the world aren't going to make you last, it'll just go the same way. people realise in the end, it just takes a while. i have pity tbh. and empathy. i'l kill you. seriously. i dont know how you do it, but somehow you do. you dont deserve all the stuff you get. but you get it anyway. god works in mysterious ways i guess. so do the stars.

on the brighter side i had a good day today :D chatroulette was actually so funny :') except the willies. people can be sickos. :L

on a final note i've made a new pledge, i made this blog so i could rant about stuff and throw out my emotions, and thats not going to work if i rant and throw, then people ask me about it and i have to explain them. that defeats the whole object. so if people ask me im not going to explain, im keeping mystery. not because i like secrets, but because how can i rant and throw freely and utterly if i have to tell people who or what im ranting about? bear in mind. thanks dudes :D

stupid dryskin, whats up with the snowing?

life is good good good.

everything sorted itself out, but in a good way this time. i must have got some good karma from somewhere because im pretty happy. confused and worried still, but happy.

i was looking at some myspace photos earlier today, dear god we look young in some of the photos, woaaaa. and im getting into twitter, LOL. twitter.com/noeynose - follow me ;D

the snow is annoying me now. i havent been outside in 3 days now and i feel like such a lameass. so it got us off school, am grateful for that but now its keeping me stuck inside like my room is some sort of jail :'( hopefully im seeing avatar tomorrow, but i have a really bad feeling the snow is gonna poo that up, goddammit.

i got this moisturizer for christmas. at first it was really good, good for, lets call them 'blemishes'. but its really badly dried my skin out and it looks all yucky. so for having no 'blemishes' ive got cracky skin. which hurts. if i find a moisturizer im happy with in my life i will die happy. they smell so good + feel nice, then the after effects are never nearly as perfect. goddammit. ive had to use like a load of e45 to moisturize my skin to happiness again, and it looks ugly. and im going out tomorrow. f*** it tbh.

i've been scrapbooking a lot, and im liking how thats come out. at first it was just gonna be the photos but then i added lyrics and little cutouts and stuff.

OH THIS DRY SKIN, :'( so not nice.

im glad i kept my 'book' because it entertains me to write a load of bollocks into it. idk, it just does.

fairwell from me, my laptop and my giant collage of a room.
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