i am the happies bean in the history of beans

today was the best day in a while, i knew it would be as soon as i woke up.

i woke up at 6, properly awake, then kind of drifted in and out for the next hour, then at 7 i was up and out of bed like speedy gonzales. sitting in the canteen with rosie+kat, i was laughing like hysterically, laughter is amazing. happyhappy. monday lessons are easy, and i wasnt tired so another good thing. :D apart from rosie being ill, which was bad obvs. assembly was boring but i drifted off into zoeworld throughout it. :P then art was good, randomly painting my book. + a weight sort of feels off my chest after today, quite a few weights actually, which im happy about. no-one likes weights :P

i want my dad to hurry home! i love my daddio, i think hes buying me a new laptop :D im so happy about that, i can sim again! and he's buying me the camera for my birthday, and the laptop for my birthday now as well, its so lovely. hes all generous :D but this is meaning i cant do expensive stuff for my birthday, which is fair fair. so i may just do camer again? not sure about that.

im in such a good mood. as soon as i woke up i knew today would be good, it did not dissapoint {: happyhappyhappy. im gonna lavish in this, cos another problems gonna come along soon as they always do. but for now its all good, so i will enjoy it while it lasts.

to rosie+kathi, get well soon homies!

had

everything. deserved? possibly. good karma? probably not. happy times. lost. things change. stuff changes. times change. people change. bad karma? maybe. deserved? no. not that much. you? ungrateful. so nice, hiding. pretty skank. slut. but friendly. so likeable. deserving? yes. everything received, yes. dirty treatments. fighting, not good. arguments, not good. resolved? no. questions? too many. not enough aloud. open person, closed person. no-one's perfect. we strive anyway. acceptable? no, you deserve what you get. everything? pain, hurt, goodbye. selfish. wrongdoings, really. seeing wrong, doing wrong, acting wrong. wrong.

you think you know so much. you know a lot but still very little. im not stupid. no matter what everyone thinks. im not. i have a brain. it wont be deserved, no.

desperate housewives; <3 i love angie, her accent is amaaaazing. i love her character, though i do think its kind of a fill in on evie. who was just a great character, love to hate. angie is basically an evie replacement. but i still like her. her hair and her accent, yummyyummyum.

had a nap earlier, woke up about 7. now im not tired, and will probably sit in bed reading for ages. dont knock it, just when im tired tomorrow it will be a regret. but it was worth it, i was rather tired. dinner, yummy. spaghetti and meatballs; goodstuff. english tomorrow, draaaaaag. pe, basketball? i think, its meh. worst, double science, iaa. eurgh, fail at that. got it all wrong in the lesson, yeast smells. sorry, but it does. im not squeamish and can get past it but its not pleasant.

nightnightnightnightnightx

and they'll be sun sun sun, all over our bodies

today the sun came out :') its been so long! i want summer please? i feel like ive been a vampire for about 4 months and i want summer so i can wear summer clothes:P

i am going to clear out my room. i need to get rid of some stuff for sure, just gotta decide what now ;D tomorrow i have a science exam :| but then katarinas birthday! man i am looking forward to that, been looking forward to it all week.

generally today was a good day :D
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actually thank god its friday. im so tired i might get into bed and have a little nap! :')

i got a bitta beatles jamming in the background, yesyes! my side also has an itch, so im going to scrath that.

now thats all nice and scratched i am going to town tomorrow, eating subway bei ;D nomnomnom, then owains sunday, again, nomnomnom. i have NO homework this weekend, but im still gonna cram in some science revision, cos i dont wanna fail. then again, who does?

shes gotta a ticket to ri-hi-ide, but she dont care :D

mmmm, gotta love it.

im off for a bitta 8 out of 10 cats on 4od then some naptime. :') oh i feel like a little kid! xD
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a blog of random thoughts that came to me

today is tuesday, which means i should have gone to walktall, but they are on tour so i could not :( which is crappy. tomorrow however is wednesday which means i have art, which is funfunfun! rosie is ill though, she better be in tomorrow or for reasons i discussed with her i may find myself pouncing on a pidgeon and raping it. muauahaha!
i still have maths homework to do, but i ended up giving both english courseworks in because i couldnt decide (N) damn.

i had these chinese chicken ribs for dinner, they were really yummy! but not im hungry again, i think the craving is for country crisp. or yoghurt. im not sure yet..
what i thinki might do is go down and make tomorrows lunch + pack my schoolbag, then grab myself a bowl of country crisp AND a yoghurt (thats right, im feling greedy ;D) then come back up here and find me something on iplayer, or 40d, on itv player. so much choice! im really into the take me out's atm, they are funny :P i feel sorry for that rian girl tho (N) shes there 8 weeks and doesnt get chosen once! aww.
my maths homework is still not done but i will do it. i had double maths today and we were doing multiplying and stuff, usually i get this. easy peasy, i can do all that in my head. but today it was all gone. i wanted to cry it was so frustrating. it was like over this half term all my knowledge that was making people think i had a 'talent for maths' had just run out of my brain. it was horrible. hopefully it was just because i was tired etc, hopefully it will come back to me soon because i hate the feeling of feeling stupid. especially when in know its there, its just not working properly. yuckyuckyuck.
its funny how when stuff happens people come flooding back into your life. like they see the opening because im open and just creep in and act like theres been no gap in the speaking. just cos i got messed about doesnt mean that i ant to talk to you more than i did before. i dont mean go away, ts nice. just there is a thin line between chatting and being annoying..
ive also gained quite a few people recently which i never thought would happen. people i like talking to. they are cool (H)

i am wearing new pajamas. they have frogs on. but recently i spoke to kathi and apparently she has never slept naked. although sleeping naked is cotch, it is far too cold for that atm, wait for summer. HURRY UP SUMMER. im getting bored of having to wear loadsa layers :( and im also supposed to be going camping with some peoples this weekend, which i was looking forward to; its going to rain. why spoil my life god? why?! it would have been so fun :[

anyway, i must skedaddle because i need to sort my stuff for toorrow and make lunch etc, its 9.27 which means ive got about an hour until i need to sleep, possibly less. if i work carefully, this enough for sorting, packing, then eating whilst watching take me out, or maybe something else. :D
LATERS GUYS

homework homework coursework

today i was supposed to get a load of my work done + tidy my room a little bit.

instead i ended up i ended up getting up at 12.30, taking some shiz to oxfam and then to co-op to topup my phone, the coming back to eat chinese food and spend 3 hours watching gavin and stacey.
i don't know why i got up at 12.30, i just kept falling back to sleep because i couldnt be bothered to get out of bed, plus i was tired. the topup didnt give me the free texts and internet that it's supposed to, which means i am going to die, my credit is gonna go so fast having to pay for texts |: the chinese was good, but the time passed so fast watching the gavin and stacey that before i knew it it was 4.30 and i had got absolutely nothing done. i started redoing some coursework, and it went okay but now i dont know if im allowed to restart it. i tried doing maths, but got so bored and frustrated that i couldnt work it all out i just ended up laying on my bed.

so now im doing my coursework and this, but idk if im allowed to completely rewrite it. but i dont like my first one. i reread it and it sounds stupid. i wish i was good at writing english, i never find the right words. maybe i need to read more serious stuff like stephen king, maybe i should go to the library tomorrow and check a load out. but i get bored so easily. besides the library now isn't about the books now, it's just about looking pretty. there are nowhere near as many books as there used to be, :/ maths i can do, but its so god damn boring. anyway, i guess its back to my coursework. *sigh* i bet i just get another B anyway. i know thats good. but if i 'can do better' then i should, surely? but my hugetastic laziness just gets in the way. and the way im critical, and get bored too easily. eurgh. stupid. i miss being in primary, back then a page long story was loads...

i am getting my haircut tomorrow, then possibly need to go to an orange shop to get my texts, need em :( think i'l just get a trim, cba with anything else. anyway, back to my coursework!
:P
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stupid dryskin, whats up with the snowing?

life is good good good.

everything sorted itself out, but in a good way this time. i must have got some good karma from somewhere because im pretty happy. confused and worried still, but happy.

i was looking at some myspace photos earlier today, dear god we look young in some of the photos, woaaaa. and im getting into twitter, LOL. twitter.com/noeynose - follow me ;D

the snow is annoying me now. i havent been outside in 3 days now and i feel like such a lameass. so it got us off school, am grateful for that but now its keeping me stuck inside like my room is some sort of jail :'( hopefully im seeing avatar tomorrow, but i have a really bad feeling the snow is gonna poo that up, goddammit.

i got this moisturizer for christmas. at first it was really good, good for, lets call them 'blemishes'. but its really badly dried my skin out and it looks all yucky. so for having no 'blemishes' ive got cracky skin. which hurts. if i find a moisturizer im happy with in my life i will die happy. they smell so good + feel nice, then the after effects are never nearly as perfect. goddammit. ive had to use like a load of e45 to moisturize my skin to happiness again, and it looks ugly. and im going out tomorrow. f*** it tbh.

i've been scrapbooking a lot, and im liking how thats come out. at first it was just gonna be the photos but then i added lyrics and little cutouts and stuff.

OH THIS DRY SKIN, :'( so not nice.

im glad i kept my 'book' because it entertains me to write a load of bollocks into it. idk, it just does.

fairwell from me, my laptop and my giant collage of a room.
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