alright its a jammie dodger but i was told there'd be tea!

so its official. thats quite ironic actually, i pictured it yes, but it's still ironic for me. my wife is going out with my ex. see? pretty ironic from where i'm standing.
tbh i don't care, just the fact that you won't be honest is what annoys me. would have been nice to hear it from the right person tbh. still my friend, you're welcome to him. don't say i didnt warn you. who knows, maybe you'll last, but don't come crying to me when he's him. good luck to you tbh, hope it works out for you because you deserve that. it's possibly he may have changed, i did know him but not now. well i thought i did, but know i don't now. hohum, things change. and when all is said and done, i've still got jeremy clarkson! waheyeheyhey;D

on another subject, i got back from norfolk and up there i had my first nando's. i failed on the subway count, even though i said i would, AND take a picture, i didnt find the subway until too late :( oh well, nando's was good ;D
i also ate bamboo. t'was chewy. AND MY FORTURE COOKIE WAS EMPTY. i'm quite worried about this, i mean; if even my forture cookies empty then what's going on with my life? does this mean i should start looking for meaning and fulfilment or just give up? hmm. oh well, the cookie tasted good anyway. heheheheheehehe.
AND I HAD MY FIRST NICKERBOCKERGLORY. that i remember. and i finished it all ;) i was proud, it was yummy, my family were surprised. well thats a lie, they knew id eat it all. ahaha.

i also got new sunglasses :D i miss my bumblebees & heart ones :( they were the best ever, because no-one else had them. :'( im such an idiot to lose them. but im hoping not too many people will have these. they are from h+m so are bound to not be unique and stuff, but you win some you lose some. i tried to get some that werent too samey, and sam said they looked good:D and i couldnt find an ugly red skirt. i mean jeesh, shops make so many ugly things when i actually need one theres NOTHING? fml. well there was one. but it was size 6. and i dont think i could get that small even if i stopped eating and stuff. and i dont wanna stop eating anyway, bwecause GOD I LOVE FOOD.

i have decided to give up fizzy drinks (unless i'm out). im very unhealthy, and i believe this is a step in the right direction.

DOCTOR WHO:D
<3
yes alright it's a jammie dodger but i was told there would be tea! god love that show.

i have lost about 3 years worth of pictures and music. my harddrive broke /:my dads going to get me another one sometime this week, but its not really about the harddrive. more what was on it. no-one else had some of them pictures, and ALL MY STOCKS AND TEXTURES. thats so many hours worth of collecting, cropping, magic wanding, searching.

i've done 2/3 of my essay, but frankly i cbb. i think whati've done is okay, and ima do it spread over the next 4 days. i'l be happy with whatever i get so long as it is c and above. hopefully a b. thats what i normally get in english {: plus mr crosdale is a pooface; 3 mymaths homeworks all on stuff we haven't done? sheesh, n00b. school tomorrow, ifi wake up. AND NO ROSIE. monday is rosie day! :'( and shes not gonna be here. damned volcano /:

time away did good, or bad depending on how i look at it. i still don't know if i should have done what i did, or whether i should have acted on what i did do. but im thinking its gonna be fine.

i don't judge you, but tbh you need to sort yourself out. its not your fault granted, but still. mmmmmmmm.

out.

decoy

i wish there was just a button in life that you could press and everything would just stop.
sometimes everything thats going on doesnt feel like it actually is, like there is is somebody else who all these problems belong to, and that if i think about something else all the problems will be gone when my mind wanders back. i wish it were so. why cant i be sorted, why is my brain such a snob to please. goddamn this world, let me sort out ? im fussy, and stubborn, and get easily locked on, and forgetting is hard.

why am i so mean? lets dig deeper and deeper then the hole is so big i have to cut in steps to climb out, cutting in the edges.

so many questions, i do not know any of the answers any more. i wish it were like maths, one definite answer, then if theres a remainder just make it a decimal point then everything is one big happy number.

although i did have a rather good day today {: i can never be unhappy when subway is around! haha.

im really looking forward to going to owains tomorrow, can just forget about all the things that are frazzling my poor little brain right now. then next weekend is katarinas birthday ^_^ which im really looking forward to, should be amazing.

a blog of random thoughts that came to me

today is tuesday, which means i should have gone to walktall, but they are on tour so i could not :( which is crappy. tomorrow however is wednesday which means i have art, which is funfunfun! rosie is ill though, she better be in tomorrow or for reasons i discussed with her i may find myself pouncing on a pidgeon and raping it. muauahaha!
i still have maths homework to do, but i ended up giving both english courseworks in because i couldnt decide (N) damn.

i had these chinese chicken ribs for dinner, they were really yummy! but not im hungry again, i think the craving is for country crisp. or yoghurt. im not sure yet..
what i thinki might do is go down and make tomorrows lunch + pack my schoolbag, then grab myself a bowl of country crisp AND a yoghurt (thats right, im feling greedy ;D) then come back up here and find me something on iplayer, or 40d, on itv player. so much choice! im really into the take me out's atm, they are funny :P i feel sorry for that rian girl tho (N) shes there 8 weeks and doesnt get chosen once! aww.
my maths homework is still not done but i will do it. i had double maths today and we were doing multiplying and stuff, usually i get this. easy peasy, i can do all that in my head. but today it was all gone. i wanted to cry it was so frustrating. it was like over this half term all my knowledge that was making people think i had a 'talent for maths' had just run out of my brain. it was horrible. hopefully it was just because i was tired etc, hopefully it will come back to me soon because i hate the feeling of feeling stupid. especially when in know its there, its just not working properly. yuckyuckyuck.
its funny how when stuff happens people come flooding back into your life. like they see the opening because im open and just creep in and act like theres been no gap in the speaking. just cos i got messed about doesnt mean that i ant to talk to you more than i did before. i dont mean go away, ts nice. just there is a thin line between chatting and being annoying..
ive also gained quite a few people recently which i never thought would happen. people i like talking to. they are cool (H)

i am wearing new pajamas. they have frogs on. but recently i spoke to kathi and apparently she has never slept naked. although sleeping naked is cotch, it is far too cold for that atm, wait for summer. HURRY UP SUMMER. im getting bored of having to wear loadsa layers :( and im also supposed to be going camping with some peoples this weekend, which i was looking forward to; its going to rain. why spoil my life god? why?! it would have been so fun :[

anyway, i must skedaddle because i need to sort my stuff for toorrow and make lunch etc, its 9.27 which means ive got about an hour until i need to sleep, possibly less. if i work carefully, this enough for sorting, packing, then eating whilst watching take me out, or maybe something else. :D
LATERS GUYS

you CUNT, pizza hut

i am actually so angry. its like this is the last straw, you've cut me and my friends out of your life completely, like you want to pretend i never happened, just a scratch on your whole dirty history. frankly it's not really fair, why do you suddenly think you're all better than me and that i'm not even worthy of being a facebook friend anymore?! this is a new low, even for you. sure you treated me shitly when it ended, but that means that all the good times before are forgotten and worthless? nice to know. really.

but i did have quite an amazing day today {: pizza hut was actually so amaze, i never thought i'd get that much fun sitting there for hours. i guess when you're with the right people it all just falls into place :D i love you guys, woo {: but, i did feel terrifically sick afterwards, especially after that ice cream, looked like diarrohea :L nom!
i skipped dinner, and had a bowl of shreddies whilst watching music and lyrics. i actually really like that film, i know people said it was rubbish, but i always kinda liked it, it's sweet. and the songs actually pretty good as well :P

oh, i take the first paragraph back. it appears you've deleted everyone.. hmm. well idk what happened, maybe you just don't like people and have developed agoraphobia and cant have friends anymore. or maybe your head got so big NO-ONE is good enough for you anymore! whatever.

omg the waitress today, she was called zoe! and she was way amazingly nice (L) d'aww. fate. the size of my food baby was outstanding, i really should have work the jimi hendrix top instead, would have hidden it. i also cannot believe just as we were reliving the 'bring me the curry' and such jokes, who should shout out 'ZOE!' but curry himself! haha! aww, couldn't stop laughing at that. rosie has summoning powers, i really do hope you say it in your sleep then wake up and he's there. and i hope they film it, LOL. they would so be a youtube hit :L

i was watching alan carr chatty man a few mo's ago and jordan/katie price was on it. she actually isn't so bad, although she does seem like shes tryna convince everyone her 'marriage' to alex is all perfect, early days. you were with pete for six years and now you're both getting shitlaods of money making up dirt on the other. whole things stupid. i really couldn't care less about your marriage, but as a person you seem okay :P

i had pie for dinner

its right, i did. yummyness (:

i stuck some more stuff on my wall as well, i cut up a few pages of last years calendar (spongebob;D) and they are now dotted around my room :) my room is a giant collage, soon i will run out of space |: i worry about that day constantly, i will have to take stuff down and this will be heartbreaking (U)

i have this weekend planned now (funny how plans slot into place the day before they're gonna happen:P) ; town with sam+kat tomorrow :D then bus to glens, train to party, then party, then stay at glens, then stagger home tired and possibly (but hopefully not) hungover on sunday. BOOYA.

i got home today and my dad was half asleep on the sofa cos he had to stay at home all day as our fridge was being delivered. i made the most of this,:L he agreed for kat staying next week, my plans for tomorrow, and to pick us up from the zambia show, am happy now. but the fridge is all silver and moderny, i like it, its giant :L and squarey. muaha!

i am off to go get changed into my pajamas now, and clean my teeth etc, then 8 out of 10 cats at 10, then probably back on the old bookface. jesus, my life is so thrilling! :')